Showing posts with label Milking. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Milking. Show all posts

Monday, May 29, 2017

Fiction: fs01 - Cassandra's Blog Bonus Chapter: Pegging

Author’s Note: This bonus chapter is a mock Question and Answer session done by Cassandra on her blog. It could take place at any time.

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Cassandra’s Blog Bonus Chapter - Q & A: Pegging

Dear Ms. C.

Why do you peg your sub so much when you make it so obvious that he hates it?

-WTF?

It’s not really about what he likes or hates, is it?

Pegging has always been a bit of a turn on for me. It wasn’t long before I discovered the early generations of double-ended dildos that really gave it a life of its own. The Feeldoe and Nexus got me hooked and the Reverb* made it my activity of choice. There’s something powerful about having a cock between your legs. I want to touch it. I want to stroke it. Most of all, I want to fuck something with it. It makes me a bit crazy.

As for pegging my sub, do you really think I would do it as often as I do if he really liked it and wanted it? A large part of my enjoyment comes from knowing that he hates it. He hates it but suffers through it willingly for me to make me happy. In his tears I sense his devotion and love. It’s really quite romantic. I do make sure to give him some aftercare as I know how much it stresses him.

I do love milking him this way. I adore it when his locked up penis dribbles out a stream from me pegging him. I think I know what I’ll be doing tonight. *Grin*.

*A fictitious double-ended dildo that delivers a great amount of pleasure to the wearer when pressure is applied to the exposed end.

END

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Fiction: fs01 - Part 63

Author’s Note: This takes place about an hour after Part 62. It was originally intended to be part of 62 but both ended up running long.


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LXIII

At dinner, Mistress and Brittany talk about all sorts of things while I lurk in the background. Movies, books, television, music, fashion, shopping, vacations, and a lot of things that you hear new friends talk about while they get to know each other. They really have a lot in common.

After desert they return to the living room. The continuous wine keeps things loose and flowing.

“Have you ever had your foot tongued?”
“What the hell is that?”
“Like, a foot massage given with a tongue.”
“No. What’s it like?”
“Heavenly.”
“Can I see you first and then decide?”
“Of course.”

Mistress snaps her fingers. I lie down with my head next to her feet and inch my body across the floor. I gently remove the slipper from her foot.
“With hands.”

I grasp her foot softly in my hands and begin with my normal massage technique, working my thumbs around the nerve zones. Carefully I raise my head and press my tongue at the top of her sole, where the toes meet the foot. I press more firmly and work my tongue in a massaging motion as my thumbs work her arch. I hear Mistress’s hand grip the armrest of the couch as she slouches back and moans.

I slide my tongue around, dragging it up each toe from base to tip. My hands move to the heel and outer edge. Mistress moans again as the sound of ruffled fabric finds my ears. My heart smiles knowing I give her pleasure. I’m a tad disappointed that in this position I can’t see her. Normally I do this while she lays in bed. Mistress’s breathing increases as she lets out a long sigh with a few pulsed cries in between.

“No fucking way.” I’m not sure what sort of expression Brittany has on right now.

I glide across the arch, swirling in gentle moving circles and spirals. The sound of friction continues with a fervor. Mistress begins to thrash and groan as I work my tongue back up her foot. I close my mouth over her pinkie toe. I suck and flick my tongue over its pad. She rubs furiously, undeterred by the presence of her guest. Her breaths heave in and out as as pulsed cry of pleasure signals me that she’s done. She pulls her foot from my grasp and wiggles it a few times. I return the slipper to her foot and plant a kiss.

“pet.”
I return to my knees in front of her.
“Yes, Mistress.”
“You let your thoughts drift there, didn’t you?”

I hang my head in shame. I feel her hands take hold of each of my nipples. I nod vigorously. Too late. She digs in her nails and gives them a firm pinch and twist. I let out a whimpering cry before she releases.
“So disappointing. I’m trying to show off your talents to our guest and you can’t stay focused.”
“I’m sorry, Mistress.”
“Oh, you will be sorry, pet.”

Mistress sits back up in the couch.
“Are you ready, Brit?”

I glance up and watch as her face turns bright red and her mouth opens and closes like a goldfish. She raises her hands and contorts her fingers.
“Umm, maybe? Like, wow. Am I allowed to rub one out too? That’s okay, right?”

Mistress laughs a very hearty laugh.
“Would you prefer a toy?”

Her face lights up another shade as she ruffles her fingers through her hair.
“Aaaaagh. No. I mean yes. I mean no. I mean… yes, yes… definitely yes.”
“First time with an audience?”

Brittany places her palms over her eyes.
“Yes. Be Zen. I’m in my happy place. Be Zen. I’m in my happy place.”
“Would it be easier if I left the room?”
“Yes, definitely yes. Yes. Definitely.”
“But what if I want to watch?”
“God, Cass!”

Brittany presses her hands over her face and rocks forward at the waist. She quickly sits upright.
“Well just look at the time. This will definitely have to wait until next time.”
“You don’t have a car here.”
“Yeah, but you don’t know that!”
“Too much too soon?”

Brittany’s hands return to her face and she nods slowly. She slowly removes them but looks a bit flustered.
“Aren’t you… like… shy at all?”

Mistress laughs
“You do remember that I had you take pictures of me with an over-sized strap on on the verge of ravaging my pet?”

Brittany closes her eyes tightly and grits her teeth.
“Those turned out lovely, by the way. I could definitely hire you as a photographer if you decide you wish to start working.”

Mistress’s ability to change the subject and build someone up is astounding.

“Why don’t we head on down to the dungeon?”

Brittany nods slowly, her energetic self on break for the time being. All humor leaves my body as well. I know exactly what awaits me down those stairs.

I follow them to the stairs as Mistress gives her the mini-tour along the way. As Mistress takes the first step I hear her speak quietly.

“If you want to really fuck with him, now is the best time.”
“Why now?”
“In about five minutes he’s going to be screaming for his life.”

Brittany laughs so hard that she has to hold her sides. This does nothing to reduce my elevated pulse rate or rising temperature. Anticipation… is the worst. Mistress pours salt in the wound with her choice of conversation.

“Let’s see. He has 20 coming from this morning for attitude towards his uniform. 30 for disrespecting you and another 15 for losing focus. How many do you think he deserves for breaking your heart?”
“Is 1000 okay?”
“I’m pretty sure that many would kill him and your arm would fall off in the process.”
“Umm… I don’t really know how this works.”
“Why don’t we say, 20 per day until you’re no longer mad at him?”
“Sounds good to me, but I can stay mad a long time.”
“Oh, Brit, I love you.”
“When you say love…”
“As a person, yes. Don’t worry, little one. I’m not going to try to seduce you. However, if you come to me...”
“Umm… so 20. Got it. Awkward pause.”
“Did you really just say awkward pause out loud?”
“Uh, no. I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

I’m so lost in their interplay that I barely notice that we’re in the dungeon and Mistress is prepping the shackles. I lower my head and step over to the mark, raising my arms and positioning them so that Mistress can close and lock the shackles around my wrists. She repeats with the leg irons that are threaded through the bolted ring to the floor. Lastly, she lifts the back of my dress and secures it to the ring on my belt. I begin to perspire and my body trembles as I watch her casually pace over to the wall plate. The motor whirs, raising my arms above my head until I’m balancing on my toes.

“I totally am getting a girl crush on you, Cass. You’re like a superhero. A high-tech torture room. It’s like you’re a sadistic batman… batgirl… chick. Newsflash, I talk a lot when I’m a little uncomfortable. In case you were wondering. I’m not sure if you’ve noticed that by now but I’m sure you’ve noticed that by now.”

Mistress has me positioned in such a way that I can see what devices are being taken off the wall. I watch as she removes a 1” leather strap with a wooden handle. She hands it to Brittany.

“Go to town.”
“So I just like… hit him?”
“This isn’t your first time.”
“Well that time was birthday spankings right? This is like punishment.”
“Sort of. I like to think it more as clearing his conscience. He knows that he deserves them. He broke the rules and committed the wrongs. He’ll feel guilty unless we purge that guilt from him.”
“You sold me. So last time I had a paddle. With this one do I like...”
“Did you play tennis ever?”
“Yes.”
“Try hitting him with a forehand.”

I hear her footsteps on the floor. I hear the air being displaced with a whir. The leather bites into my skin with a hard smack. I cry out and my body shakes against the metal bonds.
“Oh, shit.”

Step, tap, whir, smack. I scream and the chains rattle as I lose my balance and sway back and forth until I regain my footing. Step, tap, whir, smack. I cry and sob as the skin on my rear catches fire.
“Let’s see how two-handed goes.”

Step, tap, whir, SMASH. The breath shoots out of me with a yelp as I stagger under the stinging and throbbing pain.
“How do I stop feeling guilty?”
“There are multiple ways. You can whip faster, grow accustomed to it...”
“What do you use?”
“I learned to love it. His suffering turns me on… and the power… the power is just heavenly.”
“Interesting. Yes, the dark side is stronger.”
“See the swinging boy in front of you. He has disrespected you multiple times today and deserves to be punished. You are a beautiful Goddess who holds the power to judge what is right and wrong, cast down your sentence upon this insolent boy that dares to defy the Goddess.”

Step, tap, whir, SMASH. I cry a gargled yelp as my body shudders against the chains.
“Is it normal to be turned on by this?”
“Are you asking my permission?”
“Does this make you wet?”
“Of course. I’m almost angry that he has so many left to go that it will be forever until I can let him down and have him pleasure me. Are you wet?”
“So how many is that, 6?”

Mistress laughs as another crack of the strap strikes my bottom. I find myself leaning forward in my chains, attempting to inch away to no avail. Tears stream down my cheeks as I wail and cry out on each impact.

The strikes finally stop and I slump down, finally able to catch my breath.

“How do you feel?”
“I feel awesome.”

The way she shifts her pitch as she speaks would seem cute if I wasn’t in agony over my throbbing skin.

I just want to keep going. Kapow, kapow. Watching his back arch and his head fly back...”
It’s addictive, isn’t it?”

I watch as Mistress creeps closer to Brittany.
The feelings… are addictive… seductive… sensual...”

Brittany’s face turns bright red as Mistress drags her finger across her cheek.
Something something… personal space… something something.”

Mistress laughs again and removes her hand. I crack a hint of a smile from my exhausted face. Mistress is quite masterful at teasing when she wants to be.

Brittany hands Mistress the strap. She returns it to the wall and selects ‘the strap.’ The lesson teacher. The instrument of my training. I begin to whimper as she twirls it and taps it on her hand.

That one is like way longer and wider than the one I was using. Are you a size queen?”

Mistress laughs again.
You’ll have to work your way up to this one. It takes a certain level of proficiency or it can be a bit dangerous.”

Mistress vanishes from my view as she works her way around. I let out a small cry and grip the chains with my fingers. I feel her hand slide across my tender buttocks.
I’m impressed. The color of the marks and the swelling, I think you’ve found your calling.”

Brittany pumps her fist in the air.
Hooray me.”

Her hand leaves my skin. I take a deep breath and hold it. I can’t relax, I can only brace.

SMASH. A long bellowing cry leaves my mouth as my lungs expel all of the stored air. My body begins to slump as the second blow lands, causing me to recoil, thrash, and flex in vain.

Holy shit.”
My pet knows I never fuck around when it comes to what, pet?”

I sob out the words in small fragments.
Disrespect, Mistress.”
That’s right, pet. Disrespect.”

SMASH. I cry and shake, the metal digs into my wrists as I collapse forward, my feet unable to support me. I feel her hand on my belt, pulling me back to my toes. My preemptive whimper becomes as howl with the next blow.

See, Brit? I’ll bet you can almost forgive him for his earlier indiscretion.”
Almost. I still think you should keep going.”

SMASH. Under repeated blows I lose count as my voice grows hoarse and my muscle throb from the strain. Before long I find myself drifting in and out due to exhaustion.

My eyes focus as Mistress snaps her fingers in front of my face repeatedly. A straw enters my mouth and I take a sip of water. It feels so good as I can trace its path as it slides down the inside of my chest and into my stomach.

Take more.”

I slurp up another gulp.
Thank you, Mistress.”

As feeling returns my wrists are rubbed raw from the shackles. My legs can barely support me at all. My back, neck, and arms ache from the strain. My buttocks throbs and pulses as my lungs heave for air.

We’re going to carry the rest over to tomorrow, pet, but you know what that means.”
You add 10, Mistress.”

She returns to the wall and lowers the shackles. I collapse into a pile on the floor. I feel her touch as she cradles my head in her lap.
I’m so sorry, Mistress.”
I know you are, pet. Aren’t you forgetting someone?”
I’m so sorry, Miss Brittany.”
Hrm, do we need to add some more?”

I sob gently into her lap. I breathe deeply as her perfume fills my nose… the familiar scent makes me feel safe.
Do you always do that with him?”
This is what is called aftercare. It’s an important ritual that solidifies the bonds between a Mistress and her sub and helps to drive home the lessons you hope that he will learn. Dominique doesn’t believe in it. I tend to save it for when I’ve really hurt him.”

I think I get it. Just because you are a sadist and like to hurt him, that doesn’t mean you don’t love him and care about his well being.”
Exactly.”
And tomorrow, he will accept his punishment willingly, I will hurt him badly, and we’ll do this again.”
How long do you let him recover for?”
Until he can stand.”
Do you take it easy on him after that?”
Of course not. Why go to all the trouble to break his spirit if you aren’t going to push him farther?”
Wait, what?”

Is there anything you would like to do or see? Your blush says yes.”
Ugh, you can’t put me on the spot like that.”
Well… a couple of things… god… why is this so hard?”
Relax. I doubt you can name anything that we don’t already do regularly.”

I hear Brittany sigh from across the room.
Well… I kinda… want to see what pegging is like. And I also read something about milking and that got me curious.”


I let out a small groan.
That’s my girl.”
Mistress pets the fur on my collar. I rise slowly and my sobs begin anew.

Why is he crying again?”
Aha, it’s because you picked his least favorite activity in the world. Just look at how docile and obedient he is after a good beating.”

I keep my head down as I walk gingerly to the horse and climb on.
Brit, would you be a doll and lock his wrists and ankles down.”
If he’s so obedient why does he need locks?”
Hrm. I thought that maybe you could tell me. I suspect some kind of trauma. It’s stronger than his desire to please me. We use the locks to keep him from unconsciously disappointing me.”
Well, we did shove things up there before but nothing that would have probably… oh shit. I totally forgot. The day that Courtney got dumped.”

I continue sobbing as she fastens my wrists and ankles to the horse.

Yeah. Now I remember. My friend Courtney got dumped by her boyfriend after he had been cheating on her and we got drunk at my house after school. When fur sissy arrived she just went off on him. She started slapping his face, kicked him in the balls, just brutalized him. After that she handcuffed him, crammed a ball of my socks into his mouth and pulled a pair of pantyhose over his head. She was mad when he could still see so then she added a pillow case… and another pillow case… and then pulled a plastic bag over his head. I made her poke a hole in it so he wouldn’t die. She cut off his pants and underwear with a pair of scissors and duct taped his ankles to the dresser. Chloe and I had no fucking clue what she was going to do, she just went crazy.”

I begin to weep as the memories of that day return in full force.

I’m guessing something ended up inside of him?”
Oh, shit yeah. She went and got the icy hot from my stepdad’s bathroom and lubed up the handle of a hairbrush. She started jamming that brush up his butt. He was screaming and trashing so she sat on his back while she did it. Once she got tired of it she just left it in him and then took a handful of icy hot and rubbed it all over his cock and balls. The bag kept making these crinkling noises as he screamed and gasped for air. It was really fucked up.”
Did she untie him after that?”
No. She drunk dialed her boyfriend and when he hung up she pulled the brush out, lubed it up again and kept going. She was so pissed that every time he stopped screaming she just kept putting more icy hot on his junk and stuff. This was over like six hours. God, we were so mean. I remember we made him walk home with a garbage bag with holes cut in it instead of pants.”

I continue weeping quietly on the horse. I figure that story gave enough time for Mistress to harness up.
You’re in for a little treat, Brit. This is a two-fer.”
So after hearing that story you’re still going to do it?”
Of course. My pet knows how much I like it and now he knows that you want to see it. This is completely consensual. Right, pet?”
Yes, Mistress.” I sniffle.

I feel the lubed silicon work its way between my thighs. My sobbing begins on instinct. I whisper my anal mantra quietly.
Please don’t do this please don’t do this please don’t do this.”

Yeah. Totally consensual. Got it.”

She violates me. My head tilts back and I let out a long cry. I hear Mistress exhale aggressively through her nose as she pumps her hips and lets out a gasp of pleasure with every thrust. I try to relax as my body shakes and quivers, unable to control itself.

Slap, slap, slap, the sound of her hips against mine echoes through the dungeon. The tears flow from my eyes as I make continuous gurgling noises against the sobs. Mistress picks up her pace and begins to pound, crying out with each thrust. I feel her hands tighten around my waist. Her juices run onto my thighs.

I whimper and cry as I feel the warm fluid ooze into the tube of my belt.
There’s… the… milk...” Mistress finds enough breath to speak each word between breaths.

I notice Brittany to the side of me, watching in awe as the fluid dribbles into the floor.
You’re still going?”
Until… I… cum...”
That’s really fucking hot.”
So… hot… It’s… the best.”

Mistress’s pleasure calls and the sound of flesh on flesh completely drown out my feeble cries. The pain and throbbing begins to build as she jackhammers inside of me. The spikes dig into my wrists as I fight against the locks. I flail my arms and legs, hoping this will all be over.
I… love… fucking… you… pet.”

She slams up against me once… twice… three times. Her moans sputter as I feel her juices soak the backs of my legs. I feel Mistress slowly withdraw. My rear tingles and throbs. I hear her breaths slowly stabilize behind me.

Umm… Cass… is it okay if I borrow another massager?”
Of course dear… unless you’d rather have a go at him.”
Oh shit. Noway noway noway. Too much, too soon. Let me fantasize about it a few times first.”

I feel the locks release and I slide off the horse in a heap on the floor. I gather my bearings and crawl towards Mistress’s feet. I lower my head and plant a kiss, first the right foot, then the left.

So how does milking work?”
It’s quite simple really. You massage the prostate and it just comes out.”
Is it like an orgasm?”
I’ve heard about people having an orgasm that way but I doubt my pet has one. If he took any pleasure in it I’d have to find another way to milk him.”
So you love that he hates it?”
Why did you buy handcuffs when you were in high school?”
To restrain his hands.”
Why?”
To restrain his hands isn’t the answer?”
Do you think he would have tried to fight you off without them?”
No.”
So what’s the real reason?”
To make him feel powerless and uncomfortable.”
Didn’t that turn you on? Make you feel naughty? Exhilarated?”
Well, yes.”

Mistress laughs.
I think you understand it perfectly.”
So if he loved it, you wouldn’t peg him?”
I won’t say never, but probably not nearly as often as I do. The fact that he hates it makes it all the more special to me that he accepts it willingly.”
Now that is deep… but I get that completely. I felt the same way back then.”

What’s it like with that thing on?”

I look up and watch Mistress stroke the strap on.
It depends who I’m using it on. With my pet this is my tool of violation. It belittles him and empowers me. It reduces him to a hole that I use to get off. When I use it on a woman… it’s a tool of mutual pleasure. I want her to cum and the harder I try, the better it feels for me, too. It really is quite amazing.”

Brittany ruffles her hair with her fingers and begins sputtering words at a rapid pace.
“Just friends. I’m not a lesbian. It’s okay to flirt. Personal space. Just friends.”

Mistress chuckles.
“My dear, I have to say that today has been the most fun I have had in a very long time. You are wonderful and I’m glad that you are my friend.”
Brittany smiles and blushes.
“I’m really glad I met you, Cass. Really. Thank you.”

“So now what? Do you want me to give you a ride home? Is there anything you’d like to try?”

Brittany smiles sheepishly. I watch as she draws a circle on the floor with her toe.
“Well… there is something I’d like to try. If it’s okay with you. I actually did it to him once before but I’m not sure he knew what was going on.”
“As long as his chastity belt stays on and it doesn’t permanently injure him, sure… but… you have to let me watch.”
“Oh fuck. There’s always a catch. Well, when I did this Chloe and Courtney were in the room, so I guess I could try to channel my rebellious 17-year old self and say fuck it.”

I watch as Brittany scans the room.

“I need some way to hog tie him, a gag that forces him to breathe out of his nose, and a blindfold.”

Mistress hands her a few things from the table.
“Whaaaaat? They actually make a hog-tie? We had to use a couple of pairs of pantyhose and we duct taped his mouth shut and over his eyes. I feel so low-tech.”
“Duct tape over his eyes? Wouldn’t that take his eyebrows off when you removed it?”
“Ha, no. Only half of his eyebrows… give or take… a few patches.”

Mistress laughs heartily.
“Also… do you have something soft to lay on? Or head to a different room?”

Mistress motions to me and I fetch the bearskin rug from the laundry room and lay it out on the floor. With the gag and blindfold in place, I find myself hog-tied and completely helpless. I stay intently focused, worried about what is to come.

“Do you want me to leave my panties on?”
“It’s up to you.”
“Well, I actually think it feels better with them on, and I’m totally not just saying that.”

Mistress laughs again.

I feel a hand lift my head firmly by the harness. A leg across my back, then another. I inhale through my nose and detect a very strong, very close scent of unfamiliar sex. A moment later, pressure against the earmuffs on my harness. Intense pressure. The legs pull in on my back and head, the pressure on the sides of my head must be thighs. My nose presses firmly against some moist silky fabric. A downward tug on my head presses my nostrils closed. No air.

I begin to tug and struggle with my head. The grip holds firm. I shake and spam my face violently against the wetness and silk. A series of low moans resound from above my head. I pull. I shake. Can’t breathe. The pressure relaxes and I gasp for air through my nose, her scent fills me completely.

I barely catch my breath when the pressure resumes, burying my face into her. The series of shakes and spasms, fighting against her grip continues. She pulls me in, I wiggle my head from side to side. Her moans become a pulse of cries. Air. I gasp for air as the releases her grip. Two breaths, another tug.

Help me. Someone. I struggle, the more I struggle the harder she pulls, the deeper she moans, the harder she grinds her sex into my face. She begins to pulsate with her tugs and leg flexes in a rhythm, forcing my face in again and again. My nose absorbs her scent and wetness as I gasp for air and struggle to free myself when I cannot breathe. She cries out and bucks her hips repeatedly. Her legs tighten a final time. Her juices coat my face.

She releases me from her grip. My chest heaves for air. The scent of her sex lingers in my nostrils. As Brittany’s breathing slows, the sound of Mistress panting fills my ears. I can hear the sound of friction, the lube on the strap on. She must be masturbating with it.
“That… was… so… hot.”

A few moments later Mistress lets out a small cry as she cums. I feel Brittany move away. I slump my face down into the fur rug. I am exhausted… in every way imaginable.

“I’m impressed. I would file that under an ‘advanced technique.’”
“How did you just cum?”

Mistress laughs.
“This style of strap-on goes inside of me on the other end. When you apply force against it, the back end pushes on my g-spot. I believe the inventor deserves some sort of prize. Well, that and your orgasm was just so hot and the way my little pet struggled all helpless like that.”
“I had to ask.”

“Do you mind spending the night tonight? I really don’t feel like driving. I just want to relax in the bath. I have a couple of guest rooms… unless you’d like to share my bed with me.”
“Just friends… personal space… not a lesbian.”
“Oh, dear, you’re almost as much fun to tease as my pet. Separate rooms, just friends. I can lend you a toy.”
“That’d be fine.”

I make a small grunting noise as I rattle my wrists and ankles. The spikes are becoming painful as they dig in while in this position.
“Should we unlock him?”
“Do we have to?”
“No, we could leave him like this all night if you want to.”

I begin to whimper and pout from behind the gag.
“It almost sounds like he’s laughing, doesn’t it?”

I buck my elbows and rock my body from side to side.
“Oh, pet. So much fun to tease.”

END ACT


Saturday, June 25, 2016

Fiction: fs01 - Part 32

Author's Note:
Start of Arc 6.

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XXXII

Mistress paces back and forth before me.  Her boots click on the floor.  I hear the crop tap against her glove.  I bend slightly at the waist.  My back aches from this position.  I do not dare to look at her.  Her aura intimidates me.

It has been over a month since our "slave weekend" experiment.  Things did not return to normal.  Normal evolves.  Mistress evolves.  Our one day was enough to change her.  The core of her dominance hungers for more.  Her mind keeps it lightly in check.  She knows the boundaries and treads the lines carefully.  The scars and brand on my back were removed with plastic surgery.  It took some time to heal.  Mistress deems me well enough.

I model the newly designed uniform version 2.0 for her.  Mistress evolves Kimmy's original designs to her liking.  The punishment lining returns.  It's just as uncomfortable as I remember it.  It fights tighter and more restricting, contributing to more itching and chafing.  The external fur is thicker and more obtrusive.  It makes me clumsier and more self-conscious.  The collar is new.  It sits taller and hides a stiff posture collar beneath the surface.  I cannot turn my head and it permits only minor tilting up and down.  Also new are snug-fitting rubber gloves that buckle inside the sleeve.  These are very slick and reduce my coordination.  Anything glass must be held with both hands.  I can tell the material leans heavily toward comfort in sexual contact.  The original belt has been replaced by the bondage muff that Mistress had me wear in the park.  It feeds through the dress's belt loops and locks at the back.  .

The head-wear features new designs as well.  The hat is thicker with its lower brim contoured to cover the ears more.  The fur pom is larger and heavier than before, it shakes and wobbles with every motion, providing additional distraction.  The front brim has a patch on it that can be embroidered with different phrases or designs.  Mistress showed me several hats before settling in on the current one.  "sissy maid," "fur sissy," "pet," and "slave," were bypassed in favor of a male symbol.  The earmuff harness is new as well.  The fur is larger and more absurd looking.  The strap angles and widths have changed, they fit tighter now, connect to the collar, and provide constant discomfort on my jaw and neck.  The peripheral blinders are permanent on this version.  The gag is still locking and a penis gag finds its way into my mouth the majority of the day.  She releases it only for meals, when she wishes to put my tongue to use, or some of the times we talk late at night. 

My ankles are nearly always connected with a 12 inch chain.  Thankfully there are no restrictions on chain rattling.  The higher connection point on the boots keeps them from dragging on the floor.  The stockings are a new version.  I was excited at first as these include some thin knee padding to reduce the wear and tear from kneeling.  I now abhor them, the inner layer of "padding" is actually packed with dry rice that painfully digs into my knees when I kneel... and I kneel a lot now.

Another change is the chastity belt.  The new penis tube is coated in pointy rubber studs.  They aren't painful, but they do make erection attempts more uncomfortable as the rubber digs into the skin and drags.  I can't picture the mind of the people who design these.  Mistress decided to bring the locking plug back.  This one is a bit smaller but also has a bunny tail on the end.  It makes me even more self-conscious about being filled in.  She removes it before bedtime and I am permitted bathroom breaks before bed and in the morning before she locks it back into place.   

The final touch is slightly familiar but different at the same time.  It is the same type of harness as the nipple stimulators that I tested in the Adult department at Mistress's shop.  This design is not for pleasure.  Four metal pincers coated in studded rubber clamp down on my nipples like a drill bit and lock in place.  A chain connects the two.  If the chain is pulled, the clamps ratchet tighter.  Mistress starts them at a pressure I would describe as "discomfort."  With an earlier test she showed me their pain potential.  I never want to experience that ever again.  She playfully calls them my nipple cuffs.

Mistress continues to pace.  My knees ache from the rice.  My back throbs from holding a position that keeps my face lowered.  My hands fidget together within the muff.

"Today, slave, I will inform you of the new rules." 

I nod by forcing my body to move at the waist. 

"From now on there will be no eye contact.  If I want eye contact I will order it or force your face to look at mine."

My heart sinks a little.  I love Mistress's eyes.  That is where I see her love.  I have taken it for granted. 

"There will be no speaking unless instructed to do so.  That should be obvious with the gag.  This restriction will continue even if the gag is removed."

This doesn't instill a reaction in me.  It's similar to our current speech protocols and no different to how things were when Kimmy was around.  It occurs to me that this may affect our conversations while spooning.  I feel a twinge of disappointment.  I fight it off, not wanting to jump to conclusions.  Time will tell.

"You will no longer be permitted to sit.  Your pet bed has been donated to Goodwill.  If you aren't performing chores, you will stand at attention or kneel."

Mistress turns and takes a step.  The front of her robe flows open as she turns.  Her scent is strong.  My beautiful Mistress.  She embraces more of herself.  She grows.

"The size of your anal plug will vary based upon your obedience from the previous week.  You are wearing a size 1 plug.  They go all the way to 5, increasing in both length and girth.  The size will be chosen at my discretion.  I may simply get bored or wish to stretch you out."

I shudder.  I hate being plugged.  She knows this.

"Keep your hands in the muff when they are not in use unless instructed otherwise."

I feel agitation brewing.  I anticipate greater humiliation on the horizon.

"Finally, slave.  I have decided.  Since it is not protected by your contract, I have decided to get rid of your yearly orgasm.  It just seems silly for a slave to feel entitled to something that I do not wish to grant.  You may as well accept that now."

My breathing becomes uneven.  I close my eyes.  The gag hides my frown.  My sex strains uncomfortably within the tube.  My mind spins.  Why does this turn me on?

"All of these rules will supersede any orders given by others in my stead.  You have gotten too familiar and casual with some of my friends, slave.  It reflects poorly on me.  They hold the right to beat you for disobedience.  I can promise you that what I do to you will be worse."

I hang my head. 

"Bow, slave, and "kiss" my feet."

I lower my forehead to the ground.  She approaches.  I raise my head slightly and press the front of the gag to her feet.  First the right foot, then the left.  I smell her.  Her sex hungers. 

She terrifies me.  The sadism blends into her.  Her new normal.  I love her.  She would not put me through this unless she knew I could endure.

"Do you have any questions, slave?"

I nod by moving at the waist.  I tap my finger to the front plate of the belt.  I make a cupping motion with my hands.  I place my left palm facing up and my right palm on top of it.  I raise my right hand and gesture "full." 

Mistress smirks. 

"I see you have noticed that I haven't milked you in a month."

I nod and make another cupping motion.  I ache. 

"What do you want me to do about it, slave?"

I blush.  I hang my head in shame.  My fingers fidget inside the muff.

"If you don't answer in 5 seconds I will assume it's fine."

I quickly retrieve my hands and signal "stop."  I curl my fingers into a loose fist and make a jerking motion in front of the plate.

Mistress howls with laughter.  My face burns red.  I feel my emotions battle within me.

"That's cute, slave.  Guess again."

Tears fill my eyes.  I climb onto all fours and raise my behind.  I reach back with one hand and simulate the same motion at my anus.  I whimper.

"Convince me, slave."
I cry.  I continue, exaggerating the motions in both length and speed.

"So are you begging me, slave?  Do you want something up your ass like a little slut?"
I sob and nod.  The humiliation kills me.  It's easier when it just happens.  It's harder to have to ask for it.

"Ass slut, I like that.  I think I will have a hat embroidered with that just for you."
My face is on fire.  Tears stream down.  I feel the limit shatter in my soul.  I don't want to admit it.

"Get on the horse, slave.  I have a new toy just for this."
I bow and crawl across the floor to the horse.  I climb on and line my wrists up with the eyelets.  Mistress locks my wrists to the horse and secures the ankle chain.  She unlocks and removes my plug.  I wince. 

I hear rustling behind me.  A few minutes pass.  My tears continue to flow.  Mistress's steps approach.  She stops in front of me, showing off her new toy.  It's a new version of the Reverb, secured to her with a harness.  Its base is thick and it extends outward.  The tip of the dildo changes in shape and resembles a prostate wand. 

Mistress takes it in her hand and jerks it around.  She moans.  She turns her hips and bangs the tip against my cheek.  She traces it along my cheeks, circling under my eyes.  She rubs it from the tip down the shaft while she laughs.

"Using tears as lube, what could be more perfect?!"

I struggle against my bonds.  She terrifies me. 

"You are a joy to tease, slave.  It makes me so wet." 
I hear her moan again. 

The cold silicon spreads my cheeks.  A trickle of gel on my skin. I tense.  I sob.  She enters me.  She plunges deep.  I wail behind the gag.

Mistress laughs and moans.

"Take it like an ass slut, slave."
She goes in and out.  Her hips slap against my rear in rhythm.  I squeal.  She pants and speeds up.  Her skin slaps mine.  Her hands tighten against my waist. 

It hurts.  I close my eyes tight.  Tears stream.  She violates me.  It's not rape if I begged for it, right?

My face burns with shame.  I feel her hot juices trickle down my thighs.

Mistress continues with her thrusts.  I slump and take it.  My tears continue.  My body can't fight it.

Her laughs fade as her moans continue.  I feel my penis tube fill with warm liquid and drain.  I am relieved.  Mistress continues her onslaught.

I'm her fuck hole.  In and out she goes.  Harder, faster, deeper.  Her hips slam hard against my thighs.  Her panting tells me she's close.  She plunges deep.  Deeper.  Deeper.  She lets out a cry.  Her fingers dig into my sides.  I feel the Reverb shake within me. 

She pulls out.  I lay and sob. 

I hear the unbuckling of straps behind me.  A clatter on the floor.  Her boots click away.  The gate closes behind her.

I'm too exhausted to move.  My mind clears up for a single thought.  Thank you for milking me, Mistress.

END ACT

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Fiction: fs01 - Part 18

Author's Note:
This takes place several minutes after Part 17.

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XVIII

We arrive at Mistress's shop.  The day starts as planned.  The first 30 minutes are with Mistress.  I'm so happy and excited to be with her during the day.  She takes so much pride in her shop that I cherish the opportunity to see her in action.  We arrive at her office.  Lisa is already inside.  Mistress turns and holds out her arm.  I retrieve her robe from the rack and slide it onto her arm.  I pull the robe around her body.  I straighten the collar and cinch the belt gently around her waist.  She doesn't wear a hat or slippers while at work.  I complete the ritual anyways.  I kneel, bow my head and kiss her feet.  First the right foot then the left. I return to my feet.  Lisa's cheeks look a little flushed.

Mistress's secretary, Amy, asks if Mistress or Lisa would like some coffee.  Mistress motions to me.

"Would you like some coffee, Amy?  We'll have one fetch it for us."
"That would be lovely, Cassandra."
"How do you take it?"

Amy turns to me.
"1 cream, 2 sugars."
I nod.

I cross the office attempting not to stand out.  I know in my heart that is impossible.  I tune out the stares and whispers and locate the coffee machine.  Mistress likes 2 creams, 1 sugar.  Lisa likes 2 creams, 2 sugars.  Amy 1 cream, 2 sugars.  I make small marks on the cup sides to code them and return to Mistress's office carrying them on a tray.

Amy is already seated at her desk.  I place the coffee next to her and give a small bow.
"Thank you, one."

The intercom on Amy's desk beeps.
"Amy, please do not show any form of gratitude toward one.  This is his duty and it is to be expected, not appreciated."
"I'm sorry, Cassandra."
"No problem, Amy, I know you're always so polite, I just want to set a precedent early."
I blush and bow again.

I return to Mistress's office and present her and Lisa with their coffees.  They each accept their cup without looking at me.  Mistress points her finger down.  I move behind her desk, get on my hands and knees and crawl under it.  She slides her chair forward.  Mistress slips off her shoes.  She rubs her feet together and then in a slow motion, she drags the top of her foot across the other leg's calf, completing this action with both feet.

I gently takes Mistress's foot in my hands.  I caress them and rub them.  Gentle in the tender spots, firm where that will feel good.  Mistress and Lisa converse above me about her schedule for the day.  I finish that foot and switch to the other.  I rub.  I gently work each toe.  Her arch.  Her heel.  I am erect.  My sex enjoys its freedom.

I slowly work up to her calf.  I am gentle.  Mistress likes this more for nerve stimulation and circulation than muscle tightness.  I know her body.  I love her.  I start on her second calf.  Her reactions are kept to a minimum but I hear her voice deepen as she speaks.  That is her moan.  I can smell her.  Her composure always impresses me.

A chime rings over my headset.  I hear Mistress's phone beep as well.  A knock at the office door.  She slides her chair back a few inches.  I crawl through and hop up to answer the door.  A woman enters.  Fair complexion, long straight black hair.  She doesn't dress like she belongs in an office.  Leather pants, boots, and a revealing top.  Sleeveless but still wearing gloves.  She eyes me up and down.

"Sasha, this is one.  He will be assisting the Adult department today.  I've already briefed you on the protocols.  Please make use of him in any way you wish.  You'll have him until noon."
"Thanks, Cass.  I'm sure he'll prove useful to us."

I watch her put an earpiece in her ear.  She presses it.
"Follow me."  It comes through loud and clear over the headset.

She takes me across the office and towards the back door.  We pass through the "after hours" display shop and through a door.  It's a rather large office.  3 large desks with computers.  A large central table.  A white board at the near end of the room.  Several rolling metal carts line the walls.  The back of the room is dark and I can only make out some shadow outlines.   I'm nervous and unsure of what to expect. 

2 women approach.  1 is a brunette, the other a red-head.  I've never seen either of them before.
"Strip him," instructs Sasha.

A bowl is placed on the table.  The others take my arms and work on the locking buckles.  Sasha goes at my belt and collar.  As they remove each lock they dump it in the bowl.  They pull the jumpsuit open and yank the back over my shoulders.  I step out of the legs and pull my arms out of the sleeves.  My face flushes red but I know they can't see it.  I'd grown so accustomed to the chastity belt that I had forgotten what it felt like to be exposed.

The red-head walks up and lifts my flaccid penis with her pen.
"Not much of a specimen, is he?"
The other two laugh.  I close my eyes in shame and continue blushing.  My penis twitches and slowly rises.

"I think it's safe to say one is a submissive.  Humiliation arousal.  Test his nipple sensitivity."

The brunette moves in front of me.  She lightly grazes her finger nail over the tip of my nipple.  I feels almost like a breeze.  The nipple stiffens.
"Nipples are awake."

Sasha speaks again, "Prepare devices 96 alpha, 104 beta, and 119 prototype for testing."

The red-head and brunette take my wrists and lead me to the dark half of the room.  A light flicks on.  A series of bondage devices and furniture stand before me.

"4-point upright."
"Got it."

I'm led to the wall.  A set of metal shackles hang from plates bolted directly into the wall.  They fasten the shackles around my wrists and ankles.  My penis grows.  My heart rate rises.  My breaths heave.  I'm afraid.  They communicate back and forth with no wasted words.  It feels like a science experiment.

"Glove up," orders Sasha.
I watch the other two pull on pairs of leather gloves.  I look closely and notice the pads of the thumb, index, and middle fingers are covered in fur.  I breath a sigh of relief.  I was expecting a talon or something awful.

A small dish is placed in front of me on the ground.  A thin silicon ring is placed around my cock at its base.

"Device 96 revision 7, alpha.  Test number 14.  Control test, 10 minutes."
Sasha clicks a stop watch.
"Begin."

I feel the ring start to vibrate.  The two women waste no time.  Each closes their fingers around 1 of my nipples.  They massage and pinch and twist and pull.  I lean my hips forward and moan.  My penis throbs.  The ring provides enough stimulation for me to lose myself to desire.  Their fingers make me mad for it.  Soon I'm panting.  Their fingers press and twist, press and pull.  My knees wobble.  I'm so horny I can't think straight.  Press and twist, press and pull.  Moans and groans.  I can tell I'm dripping.  I hear the droplets falling into the dish.

I lose myself in my arousal.  Please let me cum.  It feels so good.  Press and twist, press and pull.  I moan louder.  The drips have become an intermittent dribble.  I ache.  I lust.  My brain overloads with stimulation.  Please let me cum.

"Stop."
The stopwatch beeps.  The ring falls motionless.  Their fingers are nowhere near my skin.   I hump the air and whimper.

My breathing slows.  Conscious thought returns.  What are they doing?  They remove their gloves.  The tray is removed and replaced with another.
"Harness him."
I'm approached by the two.  They carry a series of leather straps in their hands.  They wrap the straps around my body.  I feel some pieces of fur against my nipples.  The buckles close all over.  I'm in some sort of chest harness that somewhat resembles a bra.  They each take the metal nipple cover in place and twist the top.  I feel some jaws close around my nipple, tightening with every twist.  Pressure.  I moan.  They twist again.  Another moan.  My penis is fully erect again.  Each of them give a firm tug.  I groan.

"Nipple stim 1 secure."
"Nipple stim 2 secure."

Oh thank God.  These aren't painful.

Sasha again.  "Device 96 revision 7, alpha.  Test number 14.  Stim test, 10 minutes."
The stop watch clicks.
"Begin."

The motor in the cock ring kicks in.  The nipple clamps begin to vibrate.  After about 20 seconds I feel the effects.  I tilt my hips forward and stand on my toes.  I emit a low moan.  I'm horny.  I hump the air.  Please let me cum.  The dripping resumes.  My brain goes numb.  This is agony.  Please let me cum.  Drip drip.

"Stop."
The watch clicks.  The vibrating stops.  They retrieve the tray.  I slowly catch my breath.

"Device 96 revision 7, alpha.  Test results are a failure.  Stim produced 32% less volume than fingers.  Conclusion pending."

"Again?  They can't seem to make this work."
"Well 32% is closer than 44%, so it did help."
"I can't help thinking there's more to it than a balancing issue."

I raise my hand and wave it.  The chain rattles.  All 3 look up.

"Do you have an opinion, one?"
"Yes, Ma'am.  It's not a balancing issue.  It's the type of vibration and pressure."
"Go on."
"If I'm right, these use 4 points that both apply the pressure and are meant to provide the friction and stimulation, correct?"
"Yes."
"It overstimulates the nerve endings without actually hitting the 'sweet spots.'"
"What do you suggest?"
"I'm not sure how possible this is, but what if tightening them only moved 2 of the points.  These points would supply the pressure to hold it on.  The other 2 points would be allowed to move in a kneading motion instead of a basic vibration."  I make a motion with my fingers.
"If you flatten and round their heads, they should be able to closely simulate the pressure of human fingers."

I hear them talk among themselves, jotting notes as they go.  A couple of minutes later, I'm freed from the nipple harness.  They remove the cock ring as well.

"Pillory?"
"Pillory with stocks."

They unlock the shackles and take my wrists.  I'm led to a pillory.  My ankles are locked in place with my legs spread and then bend my forward and secure my wrists and neck.  Not so fond memories of Dominique dance through my head.  

Sasha approaches holding an oddly shaped device.  A hinged plastic cock ring is placed behind my scrotum and over the shaft and closed into place.  It fits tight.  They guide the front of the device over my penis.  The ring is flexible but attached to an elongated and oddly shaped back end.  They pull it all the way to the base.  I feel the touch of cold plastic between my cheeks.  I whimper.

"Relax or this will hurt."  I try my best to comply.

I feel the device's "tail" slide inside me.  It goes in deeper than I'm comfortable.  It feels like Mistress's prostate wand.  They keep going, deeper.  I groan and shift to my toes.  I hear the device click.  Another click, this one is a lock.  The base of the device is now secured to the original ring.  

"Try to shake it out."

I shimmy and buck my hips.  It doesn't budge.  It fights tight.  Uncomfortably tight.

The red-head holds a long-necked bottle with a wide mouth.

Sasha steps up again.  She speaks.  Cold.  Clinical.
"Device 104 revision 9, beta.  Test number 2.  Timed."
She clicks the watch.  I feel the device vibrate.  I whine.  The ring around my penis teases.  Full erection.  Stimulation.  Not enough.  The tail end violates me.  It vibrates as well.  I cry.  I shake my hips back and forth, back and forth.  Take it out.  Desire overwhelms me.  Agony.  Confusion.  Stimulation pulls me forward.  My penis throbs.  The red-head holds the bottle near my cock.  I lunge my hips, trying for any form of contact or friction.  She pulls it away.

I want it it to stop but I need more.  My whimpers and moans combine.  Pleasure.  Agony.  I beg for either one to take me.  I hump the air again and again.  I feel my insides changing.  I whine.  High-pitched.  Discomfort.  She presses the bottle over me.  I hear the ping of liquid against the glass.  I'm dribbling.  Draining.  I ache.  Please.  It flows out of me like a weak stream of urine.  Drip.  Drip.  It stops.

The watch clicks and the vibrating stops.  I continue to buck my hips and thrust.  Please let me cum.

"Test results, positive.  Time, 7 minutes 13 seconds.  Sexual frustration, present and intense."

They milked me.  Nothing I could do would stop it.  I cry.

"We're going to sell so many of these."
"No shit, right?  He's in tears.  Ejaculation with no orgasm is beautiful."

Make this stop.  Someone take me away.  My body relaxes.  They notice.  I dread what will happen next. 

They release me from the pillory.  They chain my arms behind me.  I'm led to an open patch of floor.  A chain connects to the wall and on the other end is an oddly shaped metal casing.  It's shaped sort of like a clam with a hinge at the base and a wide and round front.

"Spread your legs."  I do as instructed.  The brunette opens the clam and moves behind me.  I feel my scrotum encased by rubber on front and back.  She tightens it.  It is uncomfortable but not painful.  The rubber pulls against the skin with a lot of friction.  I hear a pair of clicks and she releases it.  My skin sags under the weight.  I groan.

As she walks away I notice a white line on the floor several paces away.  Sasha speaks.

"This is prototype device 119, code name: 'Venus Ball Trap.'  It has 2 modes, 'training' and 'punishment.'  In training mode, the harder you pull on the chain, the tighter it gets.  If you release the chain, it resets to its 'neutral' position that you are experiencing now.  We will be testing 'punishment' mode.  In this mode every time the chain is pulled, the device closes tighter and it does not return to neutral.  You will take a single step and relay the 'data.'  The test concludes when you cross the white line. Do you understand, one?"
I nod.

"After each step simply call out, green, yellow, or red."

This seems simple enough.  The discomfort is manageable.  I feel awkward and it's worse if i close my legs.

"Device 119 revision 2, prototype.  Test number 1."

I take the first step.  I feel the device tighten around me.

"Green."  They nod and make notes.

Another step.  It tightens more.  I feel some rubber teeth dig into the skin.  It hurts.
"Yellow."  The line is in sight.

Another step.  It bites, I yelp.  My body quivers under the stress.  It's awful but I've had much worse.
"Yellow."

Another step.  It feels like it's crushing me.  I cry out.  Tears well up.
"Red!"  Pain clouds my thoughts.  The line is only a few inches away.

Another step.  I shriek.
"RED RED RED!"  My body flails.   The red-head holds me while the brunette fumbles with the keys.

"Hold still!"
I muster my strength and stop moving as best I can.  My fingers twitch and my eyes are wide open.  Tears stream.  A click.  It stops.  I exhale deeply.

"Device 119 revision 2, prototype.  Test number 1.  Completed."

I crumple on the cold floor.  They leave me whimpering, naked, and in chains.  I overhear their talk.  Words get thrown about, 'linear vs. logarithmic pain scaling,' 'plateaus,' 'peak reaction,' and so on.  This is a nasty device.  I imagine Kimmy would have loved me in one of these while I slept in the cage if I hadn't been locked up already.  Some days you can actually appreciate a chastity belt.


At some point they redress me and Sasha escorts me back to Mistress.  She reminds them to fill out their computer evaluations of my performance.  I bow before she leaves.  I return to the area under Mistress's desk.  I love her.  I pick up traces of her scent.  Her perfume intoxicates me.  I long for her.  My sex springs to life.  I hear Amy deliver some food.  Lisa enters with her lunch as well and sits at the far table.  They talk about what is on tap for the rest of the day.  While the talk Mistress's hand creeps down and loosens the ties to her robe.  I can see it from my vantage point.  She slides her panties down and steps out of them.  I'm ecstatic.

She rolls her chair back and looks down at me.  I stare back excitedly.

"I'll bet you wish your mask had a mouth hole right about now."  She smiles.

I hang my head and blush.  The mask hides my frown.  Her chair returns and they continue.  I'm not even here.  My cock is erect and I'm full of lust.  Mistress.  My Queen.  My Goddess.  I love you.

The second half of my day is spent with Sandy from accounting.  The tasks are dull but a welcome break from this morning.  I file.  I print.  I collate.  I shred.  Time passes quickly.  I work hard.  I want to make Mistress proud. 

Sandy returns me to Mistress's office 30 minutes before the end of her day.  I take my station under her desk.  She removes her shoes and I rub.  She parts her robe.  A buzz.  I smell her and watch the butterfly shake against her.  I envy a piece of silicon.  My penis awakens.  I gently rub her feet.  Sole, arch, heel.  I gently work the tops and each toe.  I love her.  My Mistress.

END ACT

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Reflections part 4e: Chastity and Orgasm Denial

For the most part, I was able to roll with pretty much anything that F could throw at me.  As her hunger for increased dominance grew, F became very interested in chastity, orgasm denial, ruined orgasms, and milking.  Her take on it seemed a bit different than most chastity enthusiasts.  F was slightly interested in the control aspects, especially since she began to feel that all males should be controlled in such a manner or they will only get themselves in trouble.  This view meshed with who she was.

Her deeper interest revolved around removing any and all forms of sexual pleasure from a sub.
-Only the Domme deserves that type of pleasure, so the sub should be content if her needs are met.
-If the Domme gets another type of pleasure from denying her sub any form of sexual pleasure, and since her pleasure is the only one that matters, the sub should gladly sacrifice his pleasure in favor of hers.

F was starting to get a bit terrifying, but I continued to encourage her since I wanted her to keep growing as a Domme.  I was very resistant to the idea of losing sexual pleasure, but it always made her happy to take something by force and watch the look on my face as it happened.  Our journey down this path are the only times where I was unable to endure, but not for reasons other than the obvious ones.

I know that F was doing a lot of research on these topics both on the internet and by reaching out to local Femdom couples she knew that practiced it regularly.  She would often share her findings with me and I could tell when something got her juices flowing.  I was instructed to learn as much as I could as well.  F wasn't really interested in KTB's, thankfully, heavily because of the chance for serious injury but also because if a sub could learn to control his erections, that's one less thing for her to take away.

Short term chastity is something I had no problem with the concept of.  I thought it was hot and the fantasy turned me on to have Mistress literally holding the key to my sexual release.  F was on another level completely.

"I read something that I liked.  Most employees get 2 weeks of vacation a year.  Since it's a sub's job to please his Mistress and since following an orgasm a sub loses focus for about a week, doesn't that mean a sub only deserves 2 orgasms a year?"

"A male orgasm is like Santa Claus."
"If you're good he brings you whatever you want?"
"Hah, good one. He comes once a year if you've been nice and gives you a lump of coal if you've been naughty.  Have you been naughty or nice, slave?"

I received an email with a link that we would talk about later.  It was to Mistress Lori's Chastity Tubes.
"Apparently the only really secure tube type chastity device is to have a piercing."  I cringed.
"Really?" I feigned ignorance.
"Yes. These ones even have a break-off screw option where you can fill the hole with epoxy and the screws break off inside so they can't ever be removed.  Isn't that great?" 
"I don't know if I'd say, 'great.'"

Since F didn't have any experience with chastity, we decided to start small.  I purchased a Houdini style device at first since I thought it would entertain F to use it in conjunction with the real fur handcuff covers we had. 

Now for the TMI part of the post that is important for this segment:
1. I'm not circumcised.  I would have to get circumcised to get most of the piercings used in chastity.  This also requires more frequent device removal for cleaning and carries an increased risk of edema.
2. I'm a grower, not a shower.  Shower penises stay relatively the same size flaccid vs. erect, but they get hard.  Grower penises are small when flaccid and increase in both size and stiffness when erect, usually in the magnitude of 2-3x.  Mine is probably in the realm of 3-4x. 
3.  I have a "high and tight" scrotum, rendering almost every tube style device a poor fit.
4.  I have some baby fat on my upper crotch that just never went away.  It basically gives a small pad between the surface layer of flesh and the true base of my penis.
5.  My pubes grow at an angle. Keeping a cleanly shaved crotch inevitably leads to regular infected ingrown hairs.  If you are wondering why this matter, just try putting on the majority of sub-$500 devices with medium to long pubes and you'll understand immediately after the hinges and joints have yanked out a dozen hairs or so.  Having to stay cleanly shaven for a device and battling infected ingrown hairs was indeed a problem.

The Houdini was not a good choice as a first device.  It weighed a ton.  It was easy to pinch skin in the moving parts.  It would cut off circulation when closed as tight as it had to be to stay on.  The maximum amount of time I could wear it before I got some "there's something really wrong here" pain was about 20 minutes.  That was the first of many expensive mistakes in regards to chastity.

Next up was the CB-2000.  F had me order the pink one.  This model had the solid ring design.  If I went with a large ring, my scrotum wouldn't stretch far enough to avoid being pinched.  If I went with a small ring, it would take me 10 minutes just to get my junk through it and it was too snug.  We tried just about every combination of ring size, spacers, etc.  The end result was not great.  With a small ring and short spacer the friction would cause sores and pinching, even with lube involved.  With a longer spacer it would work fine until a testicle would decide to pull itself through... VERY painfully.  With a large ring and short spacer, it would crush a testicle.  With the longer spacer, it again would be fine until a testicle would pull through.  Our limit with this was approximately 2-4 hours depending upon the ring combo, number of arousal attempts, and the temperature. 

Shortly after, the CB-3000 was available as a "cage only" option and we gave that a try.  The base of the cage was a lot smaller, so it might work.  We used it with the existing rings from the 2000.  With this I could go 4-6 hours but then the cage would either rub open a sore at its base or a testicle would pull out.  I ordered up the hinged rings that were standard on the 3000 and while it was a lot easier to get on, the exact same thing happened. 

Thankfully, F was present when just about all of the failings happened, so she knew there wasn't any exaggeration on my part.  One of the testicle pull-throughs happened while she was playing with it.  She also saw the sores when she removed it once after I wore it on a 3 hours shopping trip.  Unfortunately my ability to endure this just wasn't there.

This got her thinking about a full metal belt, but after spending nearly $500 on devices, it was a large leap of faith to drop $1000ish on something. 

While all of this was happening she was aware that I would need to be milked for prostate health.  Since having anything in my anus was on my list of hard limits, she scoured resources for other means.  I found a method for a combination ruined orgasm/milking that expelled the prostate but didn't relieve any sexual frustration that was relatively simple.  With her permission I tested it twice daily for a week.  It was actually kind of amazing.  After 3 days of a repeated tease and denial procedure I was able to get semen to just leak out with a soft flow (like a weak urine stream).  I would drain everything and deflate my testicles but I would stay completely erect and just as frustrated.  This may have been the magic answer.

On day 5 I was going to give it another test.  As I worked my way up, all of a sudden my penis just started draining semen.  There was no build up, no "I'm close" feeling, I couldn't even control the stream.  It was like someone peeing with no bladder control.  The muscles had forgotten how to build up tension and release.  This scared the shit out of me.  I shared the results with F.
"Mistress, I think this method will make it so that I can never have another orgasm ever again.  Is that something you would want?"  My mind raced, "please say no, please say no, please say no."
"I don't think you should do it anymore then, slave.  If you can't have an orgasm, how is chastity supposed to scare you?  I will keep it in mind though, in case I ever feel you deserve that in the future."

Bullet dodged.  I received permission to try and "repair" what had been done.  I'm not 100% certain, but I believe the method I had been experimenting with had caused an over-stress of whatever controlled the release of semen from the prostate.  After repeating this several times over a short period of time, it responded by simply relaxing itself and allowed things to flow without requiring a pressure/force build up behind it.  It took me 5 days to get things working correctly again, and 20+ attempts to finally get back to something that would qualify as an orgasm. 

The next thing F tried was ice.  This would be the second time I couldn't meet her expectations.  I have a lot of muscle mass and the muscles are very tight. Couple that with a slew of injuries from sports, a car accident, etc. and my body just doesn't hold up very well.  Some of F's Domme friends used ice to yield a pleasureless ejaculation for their method of milking.  We tried this a few times, using ice to numb out the penis and testicles but continue to apply stimulation.  I was never able to ejaculate in this state, but I did manage to end up having back spasms, leg cramps, and other miscellaneous painful ailments that led to an immediate break in the play.

We didn't ever go further, around this time things started to get complicated.