New Drawings... although not my usual

I've been getting a lot more interactions on the Wordpress side of things.  After posting a handful of drawings and getting some encouragement I ended up doing a drawing.  This is sort of an ongoing joke with another blogger that I correspond with, Nora.  While her blog is M/f, she writes well and delves into subjects quite thoroughly.

The reference is to some jokes about her upcoming Halloween costume that has been ongoing for several months.

I figured I would share them here.
This was the original version.

Without text and a recolor:

There was a request put in for more cleavage, so I made some changes:

Sardax's Venus in Furs

A big thanks to Vanessa at Queening Chairs for reminding me that I still hadn't purchased Sardax's Venus in Furs book.  Sardax is my favorite fetish artist of all time and served as one of my gateways into the realm of Femdom when I first stumbled upon his artwork circa 1997.  While his pay site is no longer going, I can say that his site was one of the handful of times that I had ever paid for "adult content" and I have even gone so far as to purchase most of the available works featuring his art (including ordering a number of publications from the UK).  When the book was released I was in a tight situation financially and buying anything beyond what was necessary (food, gasoline) wasn't really an option.

Unfortunately, if I want a hardcover edition of Venus in Furs, it looks like I will have to order from the UK once again.  In the meantime, I did purchase the Kindle Edition for $4. This version features ~10 amazingly beautiful drawings to go along with a new translation of the novel.  The hardcover version includes an additional 20 drawings and I may have to find a way to get it just for those.

I only read the first bit of the translation so far but I may post a review of it at some time down the line.  I will be curious to see how this translation compares during my favorite scenes from my previous experiences reading different translations.

Post #500

Well, here it is, post #500.

I hinted at a drawing so here's my first on in a long long time.  The captions are in reference to the events of Reflections parts 2D and 2E.

Why I'm struggling to draw

I know there are people out there that could care less what I write but would like to see more drawings...

A good part of this stems from the same reasons I struggle to write.  I just don't have a lot of inspiration to draw from.  I have at least a dozen unfinished drawings that never got completed and I'm not really motivated enough to finish them.

Another large part is that I'm just not competent enough to really draw what I would like to... the fantasies that I could bring to life. 

I am not an artist.  I was raised in an environment where protecting my GPA meant more than being able to explore any field that I didn't already display a natural talent/ability for.  I've always wanted to be able to draw, I'm just terrible at it. 

What I am able to accomplish is by taking advantage of digital tools and existing pictures to create something that can work as something new.  It's usually pretty obvious which part of my drawings were done through free hand interpretation instead of from a model... they generally look significantly worse in their quality, detail, shading, etc.

Another block on drawing for me is that I have experimented with more traditional methods over the past couple of years and... I'm terrible at them.  There's a lot of tricks and understanding that people develop over years of experience that I just don't have and I get frustrated when it doesn't come together how I want it to.

One of the biggest hurdles is time.  Based upon tutorials I've seen from people who produce very high quality drawings, it involves multiple stages of building skeletons, rough sketches, a clean up phase, finishing the defined line art, shading/coloring, etc. that I'm guessing take many hours.  99% of my drawings I finish in one sitting (1-5 hours).  This is heavily due to the fact that, well, I get aroused drawing a fantasy.  If something happens that causes me to lose my arousal (run out of time, have to leave, etc.) it becomes nearly impossible for me to finish it with the same type of drive/motivation that I had when I started it. It's sort of pathetic, but it's true.

As for the process I use, when I explain it to people it's the equivalent of tracing parts of a picture, cutting out shapes of colored construction paper, and placing the cut paper in layers to form a completed picture.  At the end I will spend some time (or sometimes I won't...) adding in shading and lighting details.  On the upside, I am able to Frankenstein together pieces of different pictures if I want a certain facial expression, posture, etc.  On the downside, it does nothing to improve my abilities and sometimes I even hesitate to call them drawings since they are probably closer to traced collage work.

Here is an example of the process:

Drawings

I really want to get back to drawing.  The truth is, I want to draw better than I am able to at this point in time.  I have been working on some new techniques for drawing/coloring but the improvement is very slow and very gradual.  Having no art background really hurts me here.  It's a bit frustrating as growing up I was not allowed a lot of freedoms to take classes in things that I did not display a talent for (aka I couldn't risk my GPA with art classes).

I do plan to do more drawing.  There's two things I have been working on that need significant improvement:
1. I need to understand the balance of detail/realism.  I'm trying to draw fantasies.  If the characters look more like a comic or cartoon, that probably isn't a bad thing.  Learning what details/parts should be drawn and which parts should be omitted is something I need to figure out.  Being stuck in the tweener state I was in before isn't something I wish to return to.

2. I just don't understand coloring/shading/lighting on a fundamental level.  I think this is the part that aggravates me the most as it not only requires a deeper understanding of art in general but also a significant amount of understanding programs used for illustration.

Hopefully at some point I'll actually do what I need to do to truly improve and not just wish it would happen.

Drawing: Last Orgasm

I'm not super happy with how this one turned out (it never looked quite right) but I figured I may as well post it anyway.

Drawing: Outed

Kind of a cliché fantasy, but it's the first drawing I've finished in quite a while.  Now that I think about it, it is one of the few drawings where the dressing is implied to be voluntary rather than forced.  I found a great smirking facial expression browsing winter catalogs and had to turn it into something and this is what it became.

Touched

It's been a while

I haven't drawn anything in a while but I finished one tonight.

Teaser

A Sissy Stigma

I came up with the idea for this drawing several weeks ago but I didn't have a model that really "fit."  I was a bit reluctant to draw it because I was worried it might offend some, but when I bounced the idea of another sissy they thought it was "clever and insightful." 

I've written a lot before about being a sissy carrying certain stigmas based upon stereotypes and I tried to picture one of them here.

This was my first attempt at drawing body hair, facial hair, and a mirror, so I'm aware I'm lacking in those departments.

Requested Drawing

I received a request for a new drawing a few days ago from a Mistress.  All I was given to go on was that it should include cruelty, chastity, pain, ignorance, and despair, and she "trusted my creativity" to be able to come up with something.

I know it's a bit unrealistic... as a sub who would misbehave on that basic of a level would probably have never passed his trial period with a Domme of that cruelty... although when I come up with something like this, I kind of feel like I'm a twisted fuck :P

New Year

Humiliation Boutique - New Sales 2 (caption drawing)

Humiliation Boutique - New Sales 1 (caption drawing)

Caption request by Kimberley.

Transfer of Power (caption drawing)

Humiliation Boutique - Business Logic (caption drawings)

Feel free to call me a lazy artist as I didn't feel like making another drawing just to make a new caption.  The second one popped into my head as I was finishing this but I didn't want to cram it into the first one.

Humiliation Boutique - Sales Training

So I said I'd be taking a break for a while... at least from the themed stuff.  I had a bit of an adrenaline rush while writing my last post and it gave me my third wind for the day so I drew this one while winding down.

Humiliation Boutique - Interlude - A Little Self Deprecation (caption drawing)

Humiliation Boutique - Next Series

I know that I said I'd be taking a break but it's 3am and I can't sleep...

So I drew the meeting that will be the next set of drawings that I do.