Showing posts with label Lesbian. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Lesbian. Show all posts

Monday, May 29, 2017

Fiction: fs01 - Cassandra's Blog Bonus Chapter: Women

Author’s Note: This bonus chapter is a mock Question and Answer session done by Cassandra on her blog. It could take place at any time after Arc 1.

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Cassandra’s Blog Bonus Chapter Q & A: Women

Dear Ms. C.

If your husband is a male submissive, why do you have so many romantic relationships with women? Do you have some sort of cuckold fantasy? Why not with men?

-Exploring Life

Oh, these are some very difficult questions to answer, Exploring Life, and while I have thought about them before, I was never able to get any clear answers.

Why I don’t have relationships with other men is easy. My submissive is the only man I will ever want. I love him and he is my perfect match. No other man could ever mean what he means to me.

As for women, I find them beautiful and attractive. In many ways I relate better to women and I tend to expect more of them as people and they challenge me. It’s not that I’m a female supremacist or anything, I just have found that men are a puzzle that is easy to solve, while women tend to be more well-rounded and complicated. I would be plenty happy if I spent the rest of my life with only my husband.

A few years ago I did an experiment where I started to slowly bring to life some fantasies that my sub had written for me during the first few months of our relationship. One of those fantasies was to have me take on a woman lover that would diminish his role in the relationship. I will be the first to admit that I made a mistake with K, but since then, my sub definitely seems to respond positively when there is another woman involved as long as I make sure to give him adequate attention. You should see how eager he is to be used by the both of us.

As for how this pertains to the future, I will be honest when I say that I honestly don’t know. There are times when I regret having diminished my sub’s personality to such an extent that I crave a more active companion that I can see as an equal. There are other times when I am absolutely certain that other women are just for fun and that my heart is with my sub. Only time will tell.

END

Sunday, April 16, 2017

30 Days of submission: Day 27

Do you have submissive desires or fantasies that you have yet to be able to explore? 

Two of them exist as fantasies.  The lesbian fantasy where I am displaced as the lover by another woman and the fantasy of extended chastity.  I have done nearly everything else I had ever wanted to do.

Do some of your desires confuse or frighten you? Do they excite you?

The lesbian one doesn't confuse or frighten me all that much and it excites me quite a bit.  It is something that T and I pursued but to no avail.  The short-term prospect is probably more feasible but I'd have to wonder if my submissive psyche would adjust to it in the long-run and find a new level of subspace that I find desirable. 

The extended chastity fantasy terrifies me completely.   I feel like a walking oxymoron that it arouses me.  It's just something that I know experiencing would be rather unpleasant even if my mind and principles can rationally agree with it.  It is PSA for "be careful what you wish for."


Tuesday, April 4, 2017

30 Days of Kink: Day 15

Write about a BDSM/kink activity you’re curious about and would like to try.

Aaaargh.  K, please don't judge me as a wanker here.  I've just been lucky enough to have experienced the majority of what I have ever wanted to do, so there aren't too many things left.

One scenario is being in a situation where there is another femsub that "outranks" me.  If the Domme is the alpha, the femsub is the beta, and I am the omega.  While the other sub submits to the Domme, both are able to exert dominance over me.

(Quick pet peeve: I hate it when people misuse the alpha/beta thing.  There is no such thing as an alpha sub.  Do about 3 minutes worth of research on pack dynamics and focus on the role of the beta and this will make total sense).  

Another scenario would be serving multiple Dommes at the same time.  While I'm sure there are particulars that might be more interesting than others, I'll just leave it in a general sense here.

Monday, January 30, 2017

Fiction: fs01 - Part 67

Author’s Note: This takes place a few days after Chapter 66.

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LXVII

I kneel next to Mistress in the living room. Brittany sits on the sofa as they engage in wine-driven conversation.

“So how did Richard pan out?”
“He was so fucking useless. I kicked his ass to the curb after about 45 minutes.”
“That good, huh?”
“It makes me so angry. All these subs, the shit storm of mail… ‘I want to serve you. I will obey you. I will worship you like a Goddess,’ all a bunch of fucking lies. Within the first 10 minutes it’s obvious the just want me to spank them and then fuck.”
“He should feel lucky you let him off that easy then.”
“Hah, no. I kicked him in the balls so hard he’ll probably be pissing blood.”
“You know, Brit, there’s a lot of men that will pay good money from that.”

Brittany’s face shifts to a bright shade of red.
“God. You know I hate it when you do that.”
“But it’s soooooo much fun. You’re cute when you blush.”

Brittany covers her face with her hands.
“Remind me why I come over here and hang out with you again?”
“Because I’m charming and deep down you love me.”

A pair of laughs soon fill the room. I grit my teeth and remain silent. Playing with fire is dangerous.

“So what number was Richard?”
“Umm… number 9 I think. Or was he 10? I don’t remember.”
“You must be burned out by now. All of that in three weeks? I can’t even imagine it.”
“Well, I’m sick of being alone and I’m anxious to have a boy around the house that I can kick around.”
“I’ll rent you my pet for five dollars a day if that’s all you want.”

My ears perk up and my eyes widen.

“You’re shitting me, right?”
“Of course.” Brittany sighs.
“Don’t tempt me.”
“So who is next on the list?”
“I’ll have to check again, I’m not sure.”
“Just out of curiosity, how are you choosing the ones you meet up with?”
“Well… first off they have to be able to write in complete, grammatically correct sentences.”
“What is reason number two?”
“I’m supposed to have a reason number two?”

Mistress places her hand on her face. Brittany bursts out laughing.
“I finally fucking got you, Cass. Eat it. Secondly, I look for ones that seem like they would be devoted.”
“Interesting. How do you determine that?”

Mistress’s ability to play-through Brittany’s jab without any response impresses me.

“I read what they write to me. I look at what claims they make and whether or not they seem realistic.”
“And I’m guessing these first few presented themselves in quite a confident way when it came to their devotion and abilities?”
“Yeah.”
“What do you think my pet wrote when he contacted me?”
“Hrm… well, knowing fs, I’d have to say it was probably some weak-ass whiny little blurb where he called you amazing and probably said he would be ‘grateful for the opportunity’ to try and serve you, all the while portraying himself as a loser with no confidence.”

I cringe a bit as the words sting in my heart.
“That’s actually pretty close, so I’m a bit confused.”
“Confused about what?”
“Because you’re looking for a copy of my pet aren’t you?”

Brittany points her face to the ceiling and shuts her eyes tight. Her face flushes red for a third time before my eyes. I feel my cheeks get a little bit hot as well. I read her lips as she mouths something silently. “What the fuck?” A moment later she regains enough composure to resume the conversation.

“Cass, if I paid you a dollar do you think you could try harder to embarrass me? I don’t think you’re quite doing everything you can just yet.”
“Am I wrong? You are searching for Francis 2.0. Oh, and keep the dollar, this one is on the house.”

My lips curl into a small smile as I fight to maintain a poker face.

“Okay. Let’s say for a moment that I am searching for Francis 2.0. What should I be looking for?”
“You already answered your own question. A timid little loser with no confidence that seems like the type who would have absolutely no chance with you in the vanilla world. Someone who would feel lucky just to be in the same room as you. Did anyone approach you in that way?”

Mistress’s words twist a bit within me but I silence them with conviction as I remind myself that she chose me and I am as she wants me to be.
“I’ll have to double check. Shit. I hope I didn’t delete them.”

I watch as she scrolls through her phone.
“Hrm. ‘I am a lzer shit on my face.’ I don’t think this is quite what you were talking about.”

Mistress bursts out laughing.
“I wouldn’t worry too much about it, Brit. You just have to read into things in the right way and now you have a better idea of what to look for. Are you still receiving a lot of messages?”
“Is 1,500 a day a lot?”
“It’s definitely ‘enough’ to find what you are looking for. I could always order my pet to write one to you that you could use as a reference.”

A strange uneasy feeling creeps in.
“Nah, that’s okay. I’ve got this.”
“Have you shown my pet the picture you used on your profile?”

Brittany places one hand against her face.
“Don’t you dare, Cass. I will so totally fucking kill you...”

I watch as Mistress giggles and begins scrolling through her phone.
“Oh my God, Cass. Seriously. Stop it.”

Mistress holds her phone in my direction. On the screen is a picture of Brittany wearing her siren outfit she received at the party and a fur coat over the top. Her hair and makeup are done up and she stands with her arms on her hips and a flogger in hand. It is quite a sight and I feel a bit guilty finding her attractive. Mistress quickly retracts her phone before a sexual response occurs.

Brittany covers her face and makes some whining noises while rapidly kicking her heels against the sofa.
“I hate you so much.”
“Aww, but I love you. Now pet, tell Brittany what you think of the picture.”

I bite my lip and pause, hoping this isn’t a trap.
“You look very beautiful in that picture, Miss Brittany.”

She sits back and stops pouting before quickly rubbing her fingers against her hair, that nervous tick that has stayed with her since childhood. She finally looks over at me and makes eye contact before closing her eyes and shaking her head with a half-grin upon her face.

“I think you need to have some fun tonight. It’s fetish night at a club that we go to and we’re going to get dressed up and go get drunk.”
“I don’t really think that…”
“I don’t remember saying it was optional.”
“Are you trying to dominate me now?”
“If I was, would you submit?”
“Fuck. Fuck. Fine. I’ll go, but I won’t promise to have fun.”
“With that attitude, I’m sure there will be a line of subs just dying to go home with you.”

The next few hours are spent preparing. Mistress and Brittany plan out their outfits, line up transportation, and invite the others. I perform my daily chores, taking breaks every so often to wait on them or to prepare them food.

After a while the doorbell rings. I’m surprised when Mistress answers it. I peek at the door from around the corner and watch as she receives several garment bags from her shop’s courier.

They eat an early dinner, their hair and make-up nearly done. While Mistress is always beautiful, I always find her particularly attractive when she puts in extra time preparing herself. I find myself struggling not to stare as they eat. Mistress denies me any food at dinner and I make do with a glass of water.

A bit later she summons me to her bedroom. Mistress and Brittany model their outfits for me, their matching fur-trimmed corsets with knee high boots, Mistress in black and Brittany in purple. Each wears a long leather coat with a long fur tuxedo-style trim that extends from the collar down the front to the hem. Fur headbands adorns their heads. The scent of her perfume immediately triggers a response as my sex strains against the cage.
“Isn’t he going to say anything?”
“He’s said enough. That look on his face tells me that he just attempted an erection.”
“What a little sissy pervert.”

I lower my eyes as the shame sets in.
“Come here pet, it’s time to get you ready to go.”

My adrenaline jolts as the shock and horror grasp me.
“Don’t be scared, pet. We’re not taking you out in your maid’s dress. You’re okay with wearing shorts aren’t you?”

I nod slowly and with great hesitation. I approach her slowly as she unlocks the buckles and removes me from the hellish prison of my uniform. The head harness and hat follows as Mistress discards them to the floor. I peek over her shoulder and watch as Brittany opens up one of the garment bags.

I start to kneel to present my feet to Mistress.

“No need, pet. The boots and stockings are staying.”

My breathing suddenly becomes uneven. Yes, shorts. The glimmer of hope I had for a safe evening is crushed as Brittany walks over carrying an outfit.
“You see, pet, Brittany was trying to back out of going but she promised she would go if we brought you along and she got to pick out what you would wear. This is what she chose from the shop’s sissy catalog and I had them bring one over right away.”

I cringe at the sight of it. A shiny pink one-piece hot pants style romper, cut low in the front just below the nipples and trimmed with fur all along its edges and a fluffy bunny tail on the butt. The anticipation of the humiliation that is to come boils over.

“Please, Mistress...” Her face goes stern.
“Another word and you’ll be sucking on a penis gag all night. Am I clear?”

I nod slowly as I attempt to resign myself to my fate. My hands shake as I slide myself into the suit. The internal anal plug opposite the tail provides an unwelcome surprise. I have to pause for Mistress to lube it up. She zips me up in back, adjusts a strap, and clicks the lock in place. A thick leather belt follows around my waist. She cinches it tighter until I suck my stomach in with all my might as she buckles it and locks it around my waist.

A matching furry collar makes its way around my neck. The touch of the spikes tells me this is the same design that Mistress had me wear the night my mother visited. It buckles and locks behind my neck. The final touch is a pair of leather bondage mittens. As she slides them onto my hand I feel my fingers enter individual sleeves that bunch up and restrict my finger movement. My thumbs are held tight to my palm inside as the mittens have false “dummy” thumbs on the outside. She turns back the cuffs and locks them in place.

I let out a small whimper as I look down at my hands, realizing they are useless.

“Have a seat over there. Brittany is going to do your make-up.”
I glance up at Mistress, bewildered. She’s never had me wear make-up before. A firm slap to my backside sends me scurrying.

“Your next lesson will be one in humility, pet. Give you an ounce of special treatment and you turn selfish and forget your place.”

A frown covers my face. I know that she is right and the guilt seeps in. I don’t want this.

In front of the mirror I sit motionless as I allow myself to spiral into nothingness. I am just a doll. I watch my complexion change as Brittany puts down a foundation that makes me look pasty white and pale. Her methods aren’t kind. She covers my cheeks liberally with rosy pink blush. If her goal is to make me appear permanently embarrassed she succeeds admirably.

Her skilled hands apply lip liner before coating my lips in an atrocious sparkly neon pink lipstick. She follows that up with a large amount of sparkly pink eye shadow. I struggle to keep my eyes open while she applies the eye liner and mascara. Brittany finishes with some large fur pom pom clip on earrings and a pair of large fur earmuffs that match the ensemble.

“I’m finished.”
“Let me have a look at you, pet.”

I rise and approach Mistress. Her laughter is enough of a response to make my face burn.
“Oh, pet. You look truly awful. I can’t tell if you look more like a cheap slut or a clown.”
“We could always smack him around a bit and get those tears flowing. That might tip it in one direction or the other.”

I furrow my brow. A wave of fear rushes in. I’ve learned to never underestimate the creativity of a sadist… let alone a pair of them.
“Hrm… let’s leave him as is for now. The night is young.”
“It’s a shame the others can’t make it. I’m sure little fur sissy is just dying to know what they would think of him right now.”
“Let’s take a picture. I’ll post it on my blog for them.”
“Hah. Good idea. Just one more thing.”

I stand by in horror as Brittany retrieves the final item from the garment bag. She approaches me with a long fur boa and taking my hand, she secures one end to my wrist with the attached handcuff. She runs it over my shoulders, pausing to clip it to the back of my collar and then secures the other end to my other wrist. The boa follows me as I move my arms, its tips extending about a foot past my hands. Brittany takes my shoulders and turns me to face Mistress.

“Frown for the picture, pet.”

The flash blinks, blinding me for a moment. As my vision returns I see her thumbs rapidly pressing her phone screen.
“And… it’s live.”
“I still can’t believe you post pictures of him without blacking out his face.”

I feel my chest knot tightly with anxiety. I have never seen Mistress’s blog so this is news to me.

“I doubt my pet cares. It’s not like he’s going to have to worry about a background check for a job or anything. I have him under contract for the rest of his life. Right, pet?”

I hesitate to answer immediately but I know that she is right. The only opinion that matters is hers, the rest of the world may as well not exist to me. That last voice screaming inside of me is my ego clinging to itself. I do not wish to disappoint Mistress.

I close my eyes and attempt to make peace with the situation. The touch of the fur on my bare shoulders and arms does feel rather nice. Mistress’s phone beeps.

“The car is here. Come on, pet, we’re leaving.”
“Does he have a coat or anything?”
“No coat.”
“Won’t he be cold?”
“Of course. Isn’t that a delicious bit to add to his suffering?”

I open the front door for them using both hands to turn the knob and immediately a gust of cold wind rushes directly through the thin material of the romper, chilling me to the bone. I shiver as the piercing cold stings against every bit of exposed flesh.

“Stop dawdling, pet, and get the car door for us.”

I hustle through the winter air and open the back door of the long, black car. I extend my arm and Mistress and Brittany use it for support a they climb in. Mistress stops me from closing the door.

“You’re sitting back her with us. This isn’t our usual driver and putting you in the trunk might upset him.”

I nod and climb in after them, anticipating the warmth. To my disappointment it’s only mildly warmer inside than outside. I rub my mittens up and down my arms.

“Are you cold, pet?”
I nod. She lets out a small laugh.
“I specifically requested they not to run the heater in back.”
“Umm… I’m kind of cold too, Cass.”
“My dear Brittany you are such a spoil sport.”
“It’s the middle of winter and I’m not wearing pants. Sue me.”

I watch Mistress press a button opening up the intercom.
“Driver, could you please turn the heat on back here. A low or medium setting is fine.”
“Yes, ma’am.” is his reply.

It’s a relatively short drive to the club and I continue to shake for its duration. My nerves are on fire and I feel my heart pounding. Breathing becomes a chore. I hate this.

The car slows as it pulls up to the curb. I move to open the door. The mittens make the handle a struggle and it takes several tries to finally pry it open. The cold air bites me again as we exit the vehicle. I follow them to the entrance where a thick butch stands as bouncer.
“Welcome again, Ms. C.”
Her eyes glance over at me.
“You remember the rules, right?”
“While he’s here he is my responsibility.”

Mistress removes a leash from her purse and lets it dangle by the handle.
“I need to frisk you.”

She glares at me. I feel unwelcome. I raise my arms and she handles me roughly, pushing me up against the side of the building and patting me down. I don’t know how I could hide anything in this outfit, so this is either for pleasure or show.

When the bouncer finishes, Mistress connects the leash to the front ring on my collar and leads me inside. As we walk through the door the cues stick out in a rather obvious way. Brittany grabs Mistress’s arm.
“Just what kind of bar is this, Cass?”
“A lesbian bar.”
“Yes, I can see that. Why didn’t you tell me before?”
“Because you would have said no.”
“Oooh. I oughtta. Damn it.”

Brittany wraps herself tightly around Mistress’s arm.
“Ooh, sexy, now we look like a couple.”

She quickly releases Mistress’s arm. I can hear her making a series of noises that almost resemble speech. We find a table and Mistress and Brittany order drinks. Mistress opens the front of her coat, exposing her outfit.

“Just how did you think this would be fun for me?”
“The night is young. Give it time. Besides, everyone here knows that you’re straight.”

I watch Mistress relax as she sits upon the high chair at the raised table. Brittany looks like a deer in headlights. I allow my eyes to scan the room. It’s actually a fairly tame atmosphere from what I was expecting. The sign announcing it’s the monthly fetish night hands above the bar and a number of patrons are dressed in clothes ranging from costume-like outfits to some more standard fetish-wear. Some music plays and as the half-empty dance floor moves about. There are no signs of whips and chains or bondage furniture. It feels a bit more like a costume party.

Brittany instructs the waitress to keep the drinks coming as she rapidly downs her first few glasses. Mistress slowly nurses hers. I watch as she relaxes and surveys the room. Her public demeanor out at clubs and bars always surprises me, almost like she’s just owning the room… observing… I can never truly understand all of her complexities and nuances.

It takes maybe an hour before the first person approaches. I slowly trace her steps as she paces over from the bar. She’s dressed in black, her black hair pulled back. Her make-up is done up in dark colors, mostly blacks and purples. As she gets closer she reveals a plethora of tattoos covering the exposed parts of her upper body, neck, and arms. Her face and ears are filled with various piercings. If I had to guess her age, I would predict that she is in her early 30’s.

“Cute slave. Do you mind if I?” Her voice is deep and husky.
“Go right ahead.” Mistress holds up her hand.

I lower my eyes and try to relax as best I can. She hovers around me, keeping her face uncomfortably close to my body. I hear every shift in her breath… ever smirk… ever click of the tongue against her teeth. I feel her fingers poke and prod as her hands glide over me. I feel her pet my fur. She pats the tail, sending vibrations through the plug that fills me in. I shudder a little. Her finger tip teases my nipple. I feel my sex strain against the belt.

“That’s generous of you. Allowing this little one to wear such pretty clothes.”

I blush but I’m sure it isn’t visible through the heaped on layers of make-up. She turns her attention away from me and focuses upon Mistress.

“My name is Lynn. It is a pleasure to make your acquaintance.”
“I’m Cassandra.”

Mistress holds out her hand. Lynn raises it without breaking eye contact and plants a kiss on her glove.
“Why don’t you join us, Lynn? My friend here is Brittany.”

Brittany waves with her hand.
“Ah, so the straight chick’s name is Brittany. I’ve been watching the two of you since you entered. I don’t really have any interest in your slave, I just used it as an excuse because I didn’t want to appear too forward. I absolutely love your coat.”

Mistress smiles.
“Please tell me about yourself, Lynn.”
“Well, I’m 32. I work as a piercer at a tattoo parlor. I live for pleasure. How about you? I haven’t been able to read you yet… I can’t tell if you’re here just for show or if you’re looking for something more.”
“I’m mostly here to show my friend here a good time.” Mistress pats Brittany on the shoulder.
“But I can’t really say if I’m really looking right now. I recently had a relationship end and I’m not really sure if I’m ready for another one just yet.”

“Was it because of that?” Lynn tilts her head and motions towards me.
“Yes. It was. How did you know?”
“I had a slave of my own for five years or so. He was my last boyfriend before I came out. We dabbled and it grew from there. His existence really complicated things when I started trying to date.”
“Past tense? I take it you no longer have him, did something happen?”
“I broke him to the point of boredom. It was almost like he died inside… I didn’t even feel him struggle internally anymore.”
“I sense a little bit of regret in those words. Is there something you would do differently?”
“I’m not sure. I don’t miss him but I think the tipping point was when I kept him from communicating for an entire year. No speech, no writing, no gestures, and so on. He just did what I ordered and I hit him if he screwed up. After a while I just stopped even thinking about his feelings at all. I half-expected him to resist but instead it was like he adapted… just accepted it. Eventually he was no fun at all to play with and none of the women I dated took me seriously as long as he was with me, so I got rid of him.”


Mistress displays a sly smile. Brittany is focused upon Lynn, absorbing the story.
“I’ll bet he resisted then. Did you have to take drastic measures?”
“I did. He bawled for a week after I told him it was over. He refused to leave and refused to look for a job, he just locked himself in his room and cried all day.”
“How did you lure him out?”
“I’m not sure if lure is the right word. I sold him to a gay maledom who showed up with a group of guys. They took the door off the hinges and carried him out in chains. Apparently there’s a market for broken slaves like that. Doms who want to get very rough and not feel any guilt about it.”
“Interesting. Do you hear that pet? When I get bored of you I know exactly what I will do.”

I cringe and bite my lip as my brain spirals out of control in a fear cycle. Brittany laughs her ass off before interjecting.
“Did they pay well?”
“Let’s just say it was enough to buy a car. A used car, but a car.”
“Didn’t you feel guilty? I’m assuming you loved him.”
“Loved. Past tense. I stopped loving him when there was nothing left to love. I moved on and wanted him gone. He refused.”

They continue with small-talk after this. Pleasantries. Flirtations. Mistress and Lynn exchange business cards. I sense Mistress is feeling her out. I feel a bit unsettled. A few lines catch my attention.
“Feel free to call me, anytime. Just for the record, I have no problem with you having a slave. I’m also okay with the occasional booty-call if you aren’t ready for a relationship.”

Lynn sticks out her tongue a bit and clicks its piercing against her teeth.
“Also, I think your slave could use some nipple piercings. They’re deliciously tender and with a large enough gauge you can actually fit a padlock through them.”

Mistress smirks. I wince. A little later a petite woman with short brown hair approaches the table and makes a bee line for Brittany. She is short and trim with small breasts and a leather collar around her neck. I probably wouldn’t have noticed her breasts that quickly if not for her revealing top.

“Please come dance with me.” Brittany blushes.
“I’m really flattered but I’m not...”
“Not gay. I know that but it seems like you aren’t having any fun. I’ve been watching you since you came in and it took me this long to work up the courage to come over here. One dance, just for fun. Come on.”

“Yeah, Brittany, go have some fun. Everyone else here is having fun. If you don’t go dance with this cutie I just might have to.”

Brittany shuts her eyes in response to Mistress’s prods. Her eyes slowly open as she clenches her fists.
“Fine. One dance.”

The short woman’s mouth opens into a wide smile and she takes Brittany by the hand, excitedly leading her towards the dance floor.

“I think your friend is a little bit uptight, Cassandra.”
“She’s a little high strung but a good person. She’s just trained herself to only see some things in a certain way. Once she loosens up she’s a blast.”
“Are you trying to turn her?”
“Well, I’d be lying if I said the thought didn’t cross my mind, but I’m not forcing the issue. I mostly just took her out tonight to have fun.”
“I’d ravage her.” Lynn smiles and flicks her tongue piercing against her lip.
“So would I.”

They laugh together.

“It’s brave of you to bring a boy here dressed like that. There’s a handful of regulars that tend to take offense to that sort of thing. I’m sure they are letting things go seeing as he’s stayed glued to your side, but I wouldn’t let him wander off by himself.”
“Really? I’m surprised that gender prejudice still exists in today’s day and age. This isn’t my first time here, but it’s my first time with him.”
“You usually come with that big group in the limo, right?”
“Yes. You must have seen us before then?”
“A couple of times. It sometimes makes you seem unapproachable though.”
“I can understand that. Our clique does get a bit rowdy at times.”
“I think your friend is going for a little more than one dance.”

I look up to the dance floor. Brittany’s coat hangs upon a nearby chair and she has her arms raised, grinding in rhythm with the short-haired woman. The smile on her face indicates that she’s definitely having fun.

Before long they return to the table arm in arm, the short woman wearing Brittany’s coat. Brittany fans herself with her off hand.
“I don’t think I’ve danced that much in years.”
“Did you have fun?”
“I did, thank you, Randi.”
“Yay.”

The way that she cheers is sort of disgustingly cute.
“My ride is leaving soon. Promise me that you’ll call me.”
“I promise.”
“Just as friends. I want to get to know you better.”
“I promise.”
“Can I give you a kiss?” Brittany’s face flushes red.
“Umm, about that whole just friends thing.”
“Friends can kiss.”

“Yeah, Brittany, didn’t you tell me that you used to kiss Chloe and Courtney all the time just to tease Francis?”

Brittany’s death stare at Mistress is priceless. I can’t help but smile. Brittany pouts for a minute but then closes her eyes. Randi leans in and plants a passionate and juicy kiss on Brittany’s lips.

“You taste like peaches.” Randi’s phone beeps.
“Shit, I have to go. Seriously, promise me you’ll call me, we’ll go get coffee.”
“I promise.”

Brittany acts annoyed but as soon as Randi is out of view a wide smile forms over her face.
“I’m a little bit jealous, Brit. Can I taste the peaches?”
“I know we just met, but let’s be friends so I can try it too.”

Brittany speaks through clenched teeth.
“I’m going to fucking kill the both of you.”
“Seriously though, that girl seemed really sweet. Make sure to set boundaries so that you don’t break her heart.”
“Fuck. How did this night get so complicated all of a sudden?”

The drinks continue to flow, although the pace is a bit slower than earlier. Mistress seems to be hitting it off quite well with Lynn. Brittany continues to look a bit uncomfortable. I really wish that someone else would come and talk to her. It doesn’t take long for my wish to come true as a group of four women make their way over from the dance floor and soon surround her chair.

“Come dance with us.”
“I’m not really up for it.”
“We’re not taking ‘no’ for an answer. When you were dancing earlier you looked like you were having such a good time. Now you just look like all mopey.”

The two women on either side close their hands around her forearms.
“One song. If you aren’t having fun you can come back and mope.”
“One song. Just one. And just so you know, I’m not a lesbian.”
“Uh, duh. We know that, it’s obvious.”

They drag their semi-willing victim away. Mistress waves. One song turns into seven. Mistress continues to chat and flirt a bit with Lynn. Mostly small-talk but I can sense some mutual interest. Mistress seems more guarded than usual. Losing Barb may have hurt her more than any of us know.

Brittany returns to the table a bit later. A smile a mile wide shows on her face.

“I think I like this bar. I’ve never been around strangers that would go out of their way like that.”

Mistress just nods and smiles before looking at her phone.
“We should probably get going soon. I only have the car reserved until midnight.”

I breathe a sigh of relief. I doubt Mistress would have brought me along if not for Brittany’s insistence. Ever since the ski trip, being outed in public in an uncontrolled environment makes me feel sick with anxiety unless I shut down completely.

Mistress and Lynn part with a peck on the cheek and the promise of being in contact in the future. Brittany looks wiped out. I’m sure this evening was exhausting for her as well on an emotional level. We make our way through the freezing cold to the waiting car. Mistress instructs the driver to drive to Brittany’s home but tells him to take his time.

“I have a question for you, Brittany.”
“Ask me anything except about peaches.”
“Would you be interested in moving in with me? Becoming my roommate.”
“What now?”
“You haven’t found a house yet and haven’t been having good luck with finding a sub. I was wondering if you wanted to live with me instead.”
“Could I have my own sub?”
“If you can find one. I figure my pet could serve the both of us.”

Brittany closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. My heart jumps as I’m filled with a set of confused emotions.

“Are you trying to turn me gay?”
“Of course not, although I can’t say it would be unwelcome.” Mistress laughs before continuing.
“I just worry that you will find a sub and when that happens we won’t be able to spend as much time together. I don’t usually let people in that close to me. It feels like you’re the friend I’ve always wanted but never had. A partner in crime.”

Brittany’s demeanor suddenly shifts to serious.
“I’m going to have to think about this. Will your feelings be hurt if I say ‘no’? Of course they will. I love you, Cass, but this isn’t a great spot you put me in.”
“Don’t worry about it. It was just something I thought up this evening. I’m not super invested in it.”
“Would I have to pay rent?”

Mistress laughs again.
“Only if you wanted to. Or you could just buy a new coat every month at the shop and call it even. It will be at a discount, of course.”
“Oh, you dirty bird. That’s so not fair and you know it.”
“Just another weapon in my arsenal, my dear.”
“Let me think about it, seriously.”
“Take your time.”

The car slows to a halt in front of Brittany’s apartment building.
“I can’t believe I’m going in dressed like this. I should have brought a change of clothes.”

Mistress laughs. Brittany waves and departs. Mistress rolls down the window and calls out.
“Sleep tight, peaches!”

I hear a distant “Fuck!” drift in as the car drives away. At home Mistress leads me to the bedroom and sits me down in front of the mirror.

“Oh my pet. You look just terrible. Do you want to hear what my blog readers have said about you?”

I shake my head no. She reads them anyways.
“domn8or wrote ‘Those pretty pink lips would look good wrapped around my cock.’”
“QueenOfMean76 wrote, ‘I’m lubing up my strap-on. That ass looks good enough to fuck.’”
“sissyslutteresa89 wrote, ‘Where can I get that outfit? My clitty is hard.’”
“MsDominique666 wrote, ‘I’ll expect him to be dressed like that the next time I come over.’”

I shudder a bit as Mistress laughs. She puts down her phone and begins her lesson in make-up removal.

END ACT

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Fiction: fs01 - Part 54


Author’s Note:  This takes place about a half an hour after Part 53.

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LIV

After Dinner we reconvene in the living room.  Mistress sits on the throne in the middle of the semi-circle.  She has me kneel on the bearskin rug a few feet in front of her, well in view of everyone.  One chair remains open.  Sammy and Gordon continue serving wine.  Based upon their mannerisms, tones of voice, and excitement level it’s clear to me that all of the women are at least a little drunk. 

My nerves have been on edge since dinner.  My head tracks back and forth across the room like it’s on a swivel.  I have no idea what to expect.  Lisa breaks the silence.  Her bright red cheeks tell that me she’s quite intoxicated.

“fur… I just wanted to clarify something.”  She lets out a small burp, which brings an additional blush to her already red face.
“I feel bad saying that you aren’t a real person back there.  I wanted to make sure you know that I do think you are a person… I just don’t… ya know… see you as an equal or anything like that.  I know that I just see you more as what you do than actually having feelings… or something.  Shit, that came out wrong.  What’s a nice way of saying that I don’t care about your feelings but care that you exist?”

“I thought you were trying to apologize, not make him feel worse, Lisa.”  Theresa’s words hit her with maximum impact.

Lisa covers her face with her hands. 
“Damn it, leave me alone!  What I’m trying to say is that… like… I care about your feelings but that they just aren’t as important as a normal person’s.  I think of you more like a faithful servant than a human being.”

I smile at Lisa.  She’s adorable when she’s flustered.  I understand what she says and it makes me happy that she cares.   Sometimes I feel like I’m only tolerated because I’m with Mistress.  I don’t mind being of lesser status as long as I’m appreciated. 

“Cass, you told us to lay it on thick but now I feel guilty.”
Lisa chugs her wine.

“What is she talking about, Cass?”  Barb’s curiosity rises.
“I may have asked them to be a little bit harder on fs today, Barbie.”
“But you didn’t tell that to me.”
“In due time my Dear…”

Mistress smiles at Barb and takes her hand. 

The doorbell rings.  Mistress pops to her feet.
“Our special guest has finally arrived.”

Mistress makes a motion with her hand.  She wants me to stay put.  The others rise and head to the door as Sammy and Gordon open it.  I can only make out a faint outline in the dim lighting.  I watch Mistress escort the new guest along the outer wall of the cabin to the room next to Lisa’s.  Sammy and Gordon follow with the luggage. 

The others slowly return to their seats as Sammy and Gordon float refilling their wine.  I overhear them speaking in lowered voices.  Most are curious about the guest; apparently this was a surprise to most. 

A few minutes later everyone is back in their seats.  The click of heels on the hardwood floors approaches from the direction of the room.  All eyes focus in on the figure emerging from the shadows.  The woman is a blonde.  She wears a magenta robe that matches the others, the tips of her boots peek out from the front as her long strides carry her gracefully out of the shadows.  She takes a seat in the open throne.  I trace over the contours of her face… she’s familiar but I cannot place her.  She flashes a grin as she takes a full glass of wine from Sammy.

“I’ve worn some kinky stuff in my day but this really does it.  I do love this robe though, where can I get one?”
“That one is yours to keep, of course.  Once you put it on you are a part of our little club if you choose to be.  If you would like a different color we make them at my shop.  I have to say though… it’s so good to finally meet you in person, Brittany.”

My eyes go wide as I feel my chest knot up.  She’s older but her cheekbones… the way her nose is angled up every so slightly… the full lips… I’m ashamed that I didn’t recognize her.   A feeling of uneasiness creeps its way into my heart.

“It is great to meet you, Cassandra.  We’ve known each other on social media for what, almost 5 years now?  I was surprised to get this invite on such short notice.”
“I’m very happy you could make it.  You ended up being part of a conversation we had a few days ago.  Barbie here asked me if I knew you and when I said yes, she thought it would be fun to invite you.”
“I was part of the conversation?  I doubt it was anything good.”  She lets out a small laugh.  Barb whispers across to Brittany while Mistress continues.
“Please call me Barb, and not Barbie.”

“It was fine.  Barbie was just curious as to how my slave came to be the way that he is.  I’m pretty sure he’s freaking out inside right about now.  It’s more fun to let him stew.  I saw that you got divorced last year?”
“Yes, Cassandra.  I’m finally free of that asshole.  On the upside, I married up and we had no pre-nup so I got quite the settlement as well as a monthly stipend as long as I don’t remarry or get a high paying job.  I feel guilty admitting it but I’m actually better off not working as things are.  Things are quite comfortable right now.”

Theresa chimes in.
“I hoped you raked him over the coals.”

Light laughter ensues as Brittany continues.
“So what all did you talk about that I was a part of?”
“We mostly reminisced about my slave in his younger days.  Why don’t you share some stories with us, I’m sure everyone would love to hear a first-hand account rather than my brief little rehash.  Tell us some of your favorites.”

Brittany’s face blushes bright red.
“Oh my God… I was such a bitch back then.  Give me a minute.”
Brittany chugs down her glass of wine.  Sammy is quick with a refill.  She takes a few more sips off of the glass before fanning her face with the glass.  Her eyes meet mine and she responds with a wicked grin.

“I totally used to terrorize him back then.  When I transferred back into public high school I noticed him right away but by then I cared more about being popular than being nice and he was anything but popular.  I noticed that he would always stare at me.  I was just going to ignore him until my friends Chloe and Courtney noticed as well.  Over a few weeks they told me to teach him a lesson for looking at someone that was ‘out of his league.’” 

She pauses and takes another drink.  My heart hurts a little, knowing that she noticed me the entire time but chose to ignore me. 

“Anyways, we got drunk one night and came up with a plan.  I remembered that he was always smart, so I figured we could benefit from it as well.  I had Chloe and Courtney lure him to the girl’s bathroom after school and a group of us duct taped him to the stall frame so that his wrists and ankles were secured and put a piece of tape over his mouth.  I took a pair of scissors and cut off his shirt, dropped his pants to his knees and cut off his underwear.  By then he was crying but I tuned it out.  We took out some permanent markers and wrote and drew all over his body.  After Chloe wrote ‘gayboy’ on his forehead that nickname just sort of stuck.”

The memories rush back… deeper than before.  A wave of shame crashes upon my heart.  I lower my eyes and let my arms go limp at my sides.  The others listen to her words intently.

“After that we took pictures of him.  Courtney shoved a marker up his butt.  He thrashed around and bawled while we all just laughed at him.  It was then that I got really nasty.  I told him that if he didn’t do exactly what I said that I would enlarge the photos and post them all over the school.  He was so freaked out that I don’t think he realized that you can’t order enlarged prints of Polaroids.  He completely bought it and was my personal servant from then on.”

My knot tightens.  This story makes me feel stupid.  Brittany downs the second glass of wine.  Her cheeks grow rosy and I can tell she’s loosening up.  Sammy refills her glass.

“What else did you do?” asks Theresa.
“Well let’s see… oh yeah, I used to make him walk to my house every day after school even though I had room for him in my car.  Rain, snow, it didn’t matter.  If he didn’t get to my house I was going to spread the pictures.  My parents were always gone so we’d make him do our homework and wait on us.  One day when we were trying on outfits for a party Courtney noticed he had a boner.  We made him put on a pair of panties and tied his hands behind his back and took more pictures with his little cock poking out the top.  It was hilarious.  After that I somehow ended up with a pair of police-grade handcuffs and whenever he got an erection we would handcuff his hands behind his back and lock him in the closet.  Oh, we were sooooo mean.  I still can’t believe we did that.  I swear it must have happened almost every day.” 

“What do you think the meanest thing you ever did was?”

Brittany blows her hair from the side of her face and arches her eyebrows for a few seconds.

“I’m not sure if I can think of any one thing that was the meanest but there was a time when we wanted to go shopping at the mall.  It was a very cold winter that year.  We put him in a tight pink t-shirt and made him walk.  The mall was like 8 miles away.  The mall was packed and we went shopping all over the place and made him carry our bags.  We spent a lot of time in lingerie stores, too.  His face was so red.  He was so easy to tease.”

”He still is.” Mistress chides bringing about a round of laughter.

I feel very small.  Hearing Brittany tell stories causes each memory to rush back in vivid detail.  My heart aches.  I want to disappear. 

“Cass says you’re the reason that he likes women in fur, is that true?”

Brittany rolls her eyes in a joking manner.
“Probably?  I’m not sure.  After my parents divorced my Mom was kind of a gold digger.  She married this rich doctor and they traveled all the time.  She felt that gifts equated your value so even though they were gone, there were always gifts.  Mom was a big fan of furs so when I turned 13 I started receiving them every year on my birthday and Christmas.  Expensive furs.  When I wore them I they made me feel loved and as I matured they made me feel sexy as well.  At school I wore cheaper furs that were more practical but at home I would wear the real furs whenever I wanted to feel good about myself… which was almost every day.  I never really wondered what gayboy thought of them, but he must have liked them if what you’re saying is true.  Does he still have an erection problem around women?”

Mistress laughs.  I blush.
“Oh he definitely used to.  I’ve put a stop to it since then.  His penis stays locked up in a steel chastity belt pretty much 24-7.  I do let him out once a week for cleaning but I doubt he even remembers what it feels like to play with himself.”

“I still can’t believe that, Cassandra.  That a man would let you lock up their junk like that.” 

Dominique lets out a small laugh.  She wasn’t present for the conversation earlier in the week so this is all new to her.
“Really, Brittany?  It sounds like you were quite the little dominatrix when you were younger.  I’m surprised you turned out vanilla.”

“Is everyone else here into like that BDSM stuff or whatever?”

All voices sound in unison.
“Yes.”

Brittany leans her head back and guzzles more of her wine.  Her face flushes red.
“What’s wrong, honey?”
“I just feel really naïve all of a sudden.”
“Don’t.  It takes some getting used to.”  Mistress smiles at her.
“So I’ve been worried that I would tell all these stories and you would all think I’m some kind of terrible person… but why do I get the feeling that no one actually feels that way?”

Lisa blurts out.
“Don’t be silly.  We want to hear more.”
Theresa steps in.
“I think what my drunk friend here means to say is that all of us are very familiar with fur and we’ve all at some point had a hand in doing things like that to him, if not worse.  Hearing you tell these stories is actually quite sweet and we’re enjoying it a lot.”

“fur?  Is that what you call gayboy?”  Mistress responds to her question.
“My slave’s name is fs01.  Or fs.  The girls have taken to calling him ‘fur sissy’ ever since I started dressing him like that.  You can call him whatever you would like.”
“Hah.  fur sissy… that’s classic.”

Barb leans forward.
“Please continue.  Do you have any stories that are dear to you?”
Brittany sighs.
“Yes.  I do have one.  Senior year of high school both of our parents left us home alone over Christmas.  This was somewhat common for my parents but I usually would do Christmas with a friend or a relative.  This year I was home by myself.  fur sissy’s parents left him home by himself too.  I made him walk over every day in the cold and snow and he was so poor, he didn’t have boots, gloves, or a hat.  I made him come wait on me every day.  Over break I started feeling lonely.  I did some soul searching and realized that he had become important to me.  While I loved tormenting him I began to count on his company… always having someone there whenever I needed them.  I think I was in love with him.”

“Oh, wow.” 
“Yeah, it was kind of crazy.  Here was this poor unpopular boy with no friends that I was horrible to… and I just started to care for him.  I remember he brought me a Christmas present that year and I just blasted him over it being cheap or something like that.  That was a weird day.  I took him for a drive and basically begged him to tell me he cared for me but instead he broke my heart.  I punished him when we got back and made a more aggressive and sexual move.  It was awkward but special.  I baited him again and he broke my heart.  From that day on I was even worse to him and that continued until we graduated.”

Tears fill my eyes as I remember that day.  I hear B’s words clear as day.
“I’m disappointed in you, fur sissy.”

I’m disappointed in me, too. 
“I don’t blame him, B.  If he was even half as confused as I was back then I’m sure he didn’t know how the hell to react.  Cassandra, is it okay if I talk to him now?”
“Go right ahead.”

Brittany gets up from her throne and approaches me slowly.  I keep my head down as the tears in my eyes finally reach their limit and the first one streams down my cheek.  She sprawls out on the bearskin rug next to me, her face displays a pleasant smile.  The sweet scent of her perfume invokes some deeply buried feelings within me.  My sex strains against the belt.  She speaks to me I a gentle tone.

“Hi, gayboy.  It’s been a while, hasn’t it?”  I nod slowly in response.
“I’ve missed you so much.” 
She reaches out and embraces me, pulling my face into her chest.  My eyes catch a flash of something shiny buried in the fur trim of the robe.  She rocks me back and forth and it frees itself, toppling end over end before dangling from its chain.  I recognize it immediately.  The silver pendant I bought her for Christmas. 

The gates of my heart burst open and the emotions flow freely outward.  I sob into her chest, unleashing all of the pain and confusion of my teens and 20’s.  She continues to hold me as she rocks me back and forth… she speaks to me from her heart.
“I’m so sorry.  You were always there for me.  You were the one I could count on.  I didn’t realize it until it was too late.  I took you for granted.”

Brittany begins to sniffle but continues to talk.
“In college Chloe and Courtney bailed on me as soon as they got boyfriends.  I thought about you a lot but I didn’t think I could ever show my face to you after what I did.  I was so worried that I ruined your life.  I ended up following in Mom’s footsteps.  I married a rich boy.”

I raise my arms and embrace her around her waist and squeeze. 
“Are you happy, gayboy?”
“Yes, Miss Brittany.  Very happy.”
“Do you have a good life?”
“Yes, Miss Brittany.  I love my life.”
“Do you hate me?”
“No, Miss Brittany.  I could never hate my first love.”

She sobs and places her head on mine. 
“Thank you, Miss Brittany.”
“For what?”
“For making me the person that Mistress would choose.  Without you, I would never have found her.”

We cry out our tears together.  After a few moments we release each other.  I take the pendant in my fingers and give it a kiss.  My body feels lighter.   I’m sure Brittany’s does as well.  I watch as she stands and teeters and makes her way back to her throne. 
“Cass, your husband is a wonderful man.”
“Thank you, Brittany, he definitely is.”

Barb stands up from her throne.
“Husband?  You’re married?  Seriously?”
She runs her fingers through her hair and sits back down.

“I swear I told you, Barbie.”
“No, you just said you had a slave that lived with you.  Oh my God, I’m a home-wrecker.  Fuck.”

She covers her face with her hands.  Mistress motions to me with a motion of her head.  I shuffle on my knees over to Barb’s chair.  I place my head on her knee and rub my face against her thigh.  I reach my arms out and embrace her as best I can.  Barb looks down at me.

“You’re really okay with this?”
“Yes, Miss Barb.”
“Why?”
“You make Mistress happy, Miss Barb.  Also, you’re a very special woman: Mistress chose you.”

She pets me and shakes her head. 
“At some point I might get used to this crazy world… please… tell me that I will.”

Laughter ensues.  I smile. 
“You know, pet, it was Barbie’s idea to invite Brittany.  She asked if I knew her and when I said yes, Barbie thought you could use some closure.”
I squeeze tighter. 
“Thank you, Miss Barb.  You’re a very special woman.”

Dominique springs to her feet.
“Enough of these Hallmark moments, I demand cake!”
Her demands are met with unanimous agreement.  Sammy and Gordon bring out some large serving trays and pass out slices of cake.  From my vantage point it appears to be some very rich chocolate.  I watch as they dig in.  Sammy and Gordon stand on either side of Dominique and eat as well. 

I glance up and make eye contact with Mistress.  I read her expression like a book.
“pet, would you like a piece of birthday cake?”

My insides twist knowing full well what is happening.  Her lips part into a wicked grin.  She knows that I know.  I accept my role as their amusement.  I place the ball on the tee and wait for them to swing.
“Yes, Mistress, I would love a piece of cake.”
“Barbie?”

Barb takes a deep breath and locks her eyes on mine.  A smile forms on her face.
“A slave wants cake.  That’s so cute.”

Laughter ensues. 

END ACT