Monday, July 4, 2016

Fiction: fs01 - Part 36


Author’s Note:  This takes place several weeks after Part 35.

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XXXVI

I stand naked and shivering in the dungeon.  My legs are spread, my hands behind my head.  Four women stand before me.  Masks and goggles similar to the ones used in paintball cover their faces.   They wear long leather coats trimmed in fur at the collar and cuffs.  Fur hats.  Knee high leather boots.  They look like they belong in a movie portraying Soviet-era Russian military.  My eyes drift to their belts.  My breathing becomes heavy with fear.  Handcuffs.  A leather strap.  Pepper spray.  A flashlight.  A baton. 

This feels too real to be a game.  My fingers fidget.  I am exposed and vulnerable.  I blush in shame.  I can tell them apart by their heights and hair.  The uniform fits Mistress beautifully.  My eyes find her.  The mirrored finish on her goggles hides her eyes from me.  My sex strains against the belt. 

She nods her head to the right.  Another guard steps forward.  It must be Tabitha.  The voice confirms it.

She tosses a bundle at my feet.

“Inmate, get ready for transport.”

I nod and open the bundle.  A neon pink jumpsuit with “D.O.C.” stenciled on the back along with a pair of canvas slip-on shoes.  I quickly dress in front of them.  Even as a prisoner I’m forced to wear pink.

Tabitha and Lauren approach me.  They feed a belly-chain around my waist and lock it in place.  Tabitha secures the leg irons while Lauren secures my wrists with handcuffs.  Full prisoner transport shackles.  They lock them tight.  It hurts.  This isn’t a game to them.  I throw a concerned glance at Mistress.  She doesn’t react.

Hands from behind pull a black bag over my head, covering my face and eyes.  I feel it cinch at the waist.  Ear mufflers over the top.  I start to shake, remembering my previous experiences with Renee.  I’m freed from that moment by firm grips on my arms.  They drag me forwards.  I stumble to keep up.  The ankle cuffs dig into my muscles with each step. 

They drag me along with force.  Up the stairs.  Across the rooms.  Voices are muffled.  I see only glimmers of light through the fabric of the bag.  The lights get brighter.  I feel the cold bite of the wind through the cotton suit.  Snow in my shoes.  It’s freezing.  I play along.  This is what Mistress expects of me.  This is what will make her happy. 

Up a step.  I’m forced into a seat.  Straps cross over my chest.  On the ride I remind myself this is just for a university project.  This isn’t real.  Stay calm.  Make Mistress proud.  My seat thumps.  The ride gets bumpy.  I breathe slowly and keep my eyes closed. 

The vehicle lurches to a halt.  I feel the straps release.  Hands grip my arms again.  I’m dragged down a step.  My feet land in some deep snow.  It easily penetrates the pant leg and its cold covers my ankles and feet.  A gust of wind makes me shiver. 

They drag me along.  The ground under my feet changes from snow to a hard, flat surface.  They remove the ear mufflers and bag.  My eyes squint as they adjust to the light.  I’m in plain and drab building with a concrete floor.  There’s no wind but it’s still freezing. 

Mistress grabs my arm again.  Her fingers dig into the muscle and find a pressure point.  I wince.

“A new inmate for processing.”  She speaks calmly, without emotion.
“Strip search him,” replies Tabitha.

Mistress and the final guard, who must be Dominique, release my shackles.  The rush of blood to my hands and feet tingles.  They unzip my jump suit and drag me out of it. 

“He’s resisting,” says Mistress.  In an instant she bars my arm, a blow to the knee makes it buckle and she puts me face down on the ground.  The concrete is freezing on my bare chest.  She digs her knee into my back and pins my arm behind me.  A rain of straps follows.  Over and over they land on my back, buttocks, arms, and legs. 

I scream and thrash about.  Tears soon fill my eyes.  My body falls limp.  The blows stop. 

“We’ll do this the hard way.”

Mistress and Dominique force me to my feet.  They lead me to a table and force me face down.  My wrists are secured by a pair of shackles on the far end.  The tears continue.  This isn’t real. 

“Body cavity search time!”   It’s definitely Dominique.  She sounds excited.  I hear the snap of a rubber glove.  A squishing sound.  I pull my legs together.  I feel a hand grip the back of my neck, pinning my face to the table.  A boot forces its way between my feet.  It shoves my right foot out to the side.  Another boot repeats that with the same. 

I sob. 

“Please don’t do this.  I don’t have anything.  Please don’t do this.”

The hand tightens on my neck.
“Shut up, inmate.  Speak again and you’ll get the strap.”

My body tenses.  My muscles twitch.  I feel a pair of lubed fingers slide their way between my cheeks.  I whimper.  Please don’t do this. 

They violate me.  I bawl.  The fingers move around, inspecting my insides.  My body slumps in defeat.  This isn’t a game.  I am a prisoner. 

“He’s clean.”  The fingers leave my body.

A guard sits at the head of the table.  It’s Tabitha.

“Inmate, you have been sent to this prison to complete your rehabilitation.  The length of your sentence is determined by your ability to change yourself into someone that can contribute positively to society.  Do you understand?”
“Yes, ma’am.”  My response is feeble and weak.

“From now on, you are prisoner number zero-zero-one.  You do not have a name.  Names are granted to those who deserve them.  You are merely a number until you have earned the right to a name upon your release.  Your file says you have pled guilty to sexual assault and indecent exposure.  Is this true?”
“No, ma’am.”

SMACK.  A strap bites into the frozen skin on my rear.  I yelp.  They tell me who I am. 
“Is this true?”
“Yes, ma’am.  It is true.”
“Good, inmate.  Admitting your crime is the first step.  I’m sure you have a long list of crimes against women.  Confess and we can start your rehabilitation.”
“I have nothing to confess, ma’am.”

SMACK.  SMACK.  I wail and sob. 
“Confess.”
“I’ve committed crimes against women, ma’am.  I lust for them.  I see them as prey.  I treat them as inferiors.”  I lie out of necessity. 
“Inmate, by the end of your rehabilitation, I can promise you that you will see women in a new light.  Get him into uniform and take him to his cell.”

The hand releases its grip on my neck.  The shackles are unlocked from my wrists.  The skin on my back, arms, legs, and buttocks burns.  I can feel my heart pulse in them.  There will be bruises soon.  A bundle lands on the table in front of me.  I open it and find my uniform.  My heart sinks even more.  It too is pink.  I unfold the uniform.  If its design was meant to demoralize me it has succeeded. 

I reluctantly pull the pink dress over my head.  It’s almost identical to my maid’s uniform with fur at the collar, cuffs, and hem.  There’s a startling difference.  The prison uniform is made of thin cotton.  It is rough and scratchy.  A hand zips the back up for me.  I rub my arms for warmth.  A pair of cotton tights.  Thin mittens.  Pink moon boots.  I finish dressing and present my finished self to the guards.  My face burns red.   Lauren secures a gag in my mouth.  She buckles it behind my head and locks it in place.  The gag has an air hole in its center.  She then pulls a pink spandex mask over my head.  It has eyeholes and a small hole to leave the gag’s air hole unblocked.  I feel a pom pom dance back and forth on top of the mask as I move. 

I feel a belt cinch tightly around my waist.  It buckles behind me.  A lock clicks.

Lauren stands directly in front of me.

“Inmate 001, this is your prison uniform.  You will be inspected several times a day.  Your uniform will remain in place and in presentable condition.  Any uniform violations will increase the length of time before your first parole hearing.  Your current parole hearing is scheduled for 7 days from now.”

I hang my head.  This isn’t a game.  I feel leg irons click shut around my ankles.  The boots provide enough padding to keep them from hurting. 

“Hands behind your back.” 

I turn and do as I am instructed.  Her hand grips my wrist and turns it palm out.  I feel the handcuff close around my wrist.  She repeats with the other hand.  A tug on the chain. 

“Escort the prisoner to his cell.” 

Hands grip my arms.  I keep my head down.  Is this what you wanted, Mistress? 

They direct me to the back of the building.  Along the rear wall stand a row of stacked cages.  I approach the left side of the row.  Mistress opens the latch and swings the door open. 

“Welcome to your new home, inmate.”

I drop to my knees and shuffle into the cage.  The door closes behind me.  A lock clicks.  I turn to the bars.  I can smell Mistress’s sex.  I want to touch her.  Without a glance she turns and walks away, Dominique beside her.  When they are across the room I see them getting friendly.  Talking, giving each other playful shoves.  I feel sad and alone now.

I slump down in the cage.  I hate being restrained with my hands behind me.  It’s uncomfortable.  The inside of the cage is small.  It’s too short to stand.  It’s not deep enough to lie down.  It’s too narrow to turn easily.  Solid metal surrounds me on 5 sides.  The barred front door is the only opening.  I lie on the ground and curl up into a ball, a feeble attempt to huddle for warmth.  I close my eyes.

A clink of metal startles me.  I open my eyes. 

“Feeding time, inmate.” 

I rise in the cage and struggle to turn.  I shuffle toward the bars.  A bottle clamps to the bars.  A bent metal tube at the bottom acts as a sort of straw.  It’s a larger version of the water feeders we had for our pet gerbils when I was a child.  I glance around, wondering how I’m supposed to eat.  The guard is already across the room. 

I let out a sigh.  I press my face to the bars.  Line the metal tube up with the air hole on the gag.  It takes a few tries to insert it.  Finally secure, I suck.  Liquid slowly enters my mouth through the hole in the gag.  It tastes awful.  I’m starving and dehydrated and I know better than to complain.  I choke down the foul and perverse liquid meal sip by sip, gulp by gulp.  The rumbling in my belly slowly ceases.  I empty the bottle and slump back into the cage.  I close my eyes.

A bang of metal on metal makes me jump.  My eyes fly open. 

“Head count!”  The latch on the cage door clangs and the door swings open.  I shuffle my way out of the cage.  I struggle to my feet.  Lauren stands before me with a clipboard. 

“001 present and accounted for.  Get back in your cell, inmate.”

I again drop to my knees.  I shuffle my way back.  A foot shoves my backside forward.  I topple onto my face, my cheek bears the brunt of the impact. 

“I haven’t got all day, hurry up, inmate.”

I pull my legs in.  The cage door clangs shut.  The latch bangs.  The lock clicks.  I slump against the cage floor.  My wrists hurt.  This isn’t a game.  I miss you, Mistress.  I close my eyes.

Time passes.  I lay motionless.  A voice shouts.

“Lights out!” 

I open my eyes in time to see the ceiling light near the cages turn off.  It’s dark.  I’m cold and lonely.  This isn’t a game.  I close my eyes.  I repeat a mantra in my head: This will all be over soon.  I doze off.

I jerk awake.  Metal on metal.  I shift my body in the cage.  Light blinds my eyes.  A guard with a flashlight.  She drags the end against the bars.  The lock clicks.  The latch clangs.  The cage door swings open.  I shake the cobwebs from my head, rise to my knees, and shuffle my way out.    The light continues to blind me. 

Her hand pulls up my mask.  She fidgets with the gag strap.  I feel the buckle release.  She pulls the gag from my mouth.  I can smell her.  It’s Mistress.  My heart jumps. 

“Mistress, I love you.”
“Silence, inmate!”

Smack.  Her hand meets me squarely on the cheek.  It stings.  Tears fill my eyes.  Her mirrored goggles hide her eyes.  I lower my head. 

“Don’t you dare get familiar with me, inmate, or I will beat you.”

Smack.  She slaps me again, even harder. 

“You’re the fresh meat here.  We played rock, paper, scissors to see who would get to use you first, and I won.” 

I mentally retreat.  I feel small and helpless.  Endure.  She unbuckles her belt.  It falls to the ground around her with a clank.  Her coat opens.  Her hands slide down her body to the waist of the leather pants.  She unsnaps a frontal codpiece from the crotch and drops it on the floor.

I fight back a grin.  The design is what I would have expected from Mistress.  Her sex glistens in the light.  She’s wet.  Her palm extends on the top of my head and holds it in place.  Her boot lightly taps the front of my chastity belt.  My breathing grows heavy. 

I whimper a low moan.  SMACK.  Her hand meets my cheek.  I cringe and shut my eyes tight.  She hisses.

“Criminals don’t deserve to enjoy this.  Pleasure me well or I will have no issue with hurting you.”

She pulls my face into her sex.  Her other hand grips my neck and presses firmly on my throat.  I gasp for air.  Her scent fills my nose.  I’m not a person.  I’m her masturbation toy.  My lips kiss her erect clit.  I want to love her but she frightens me.  My body takes over, the years of conditioning and training shining through.  I lick my lips and press them around her clit.  My tongue flattens and massages it.  Her juices soak into the fabric of the mask.  She is all I can smell.

She pulls my head tighter.  I swirl my tongue over her.  Back and forth, up and down.  Small circles.  She rocks her pelvis and meets me.  I continue to lick.  My lips form a suction.  She moans.  She grinds into my face.  I press my tongue harder and increase its pace.  I feel her juices flowing.  I press firmer and find the sweet spot.  She lets out a pleasure cry.  Her hand pulls my head harder.  Her thumb presses firmly on my throat. 

My breaths heave through my nose.  In and out.  The hot air flows from my nose in pulses.  I know she can feel me.  My tongue and lips continue their work.  She grinds onto me harder.  I feel her thighs flex.  She moans again, louder.  My tongue flicks and slides across her.  She is close.

Her hand slides down the back of my head.  It mirrors the other.  I feel both of her thumbs over my throat.  I tremble.  I take a deep breath and continue to lick.  Her thumbs press tighter.  The air passage closes.  I feel the blood throb in my face.  My body reacts in panic.  Her fingers tighten at the back of my neck and press my head tightly against her.  My mouth opens and my tongue stops moving.  Panic.  My head shakes violently.  My face rubs back and forth over her sex.  She moans and loosens her thumbs. 

I heave a deep breath.  My throat swallows, shaking away the unfamiliar sensation.  She lets out a deep laugh.  Her hand pulls my head, burying my face in her sex.  Her hips press her firmly against my lips.  I work faster.  My tongue finds the sweet spot.  Her voice pulses in a series of cries and moans. 

Her hands slide down.  Her thumbs again find my throat.  I let out a small whimper.  They press down.  My head fights against her grip.  She pulls me tighter.  My eyes feel like they are bulging.  My face pulses.  My head shakes rapidly.  My lips and nose spasm against her crotch.  I feel her clit rubbing against my quivering face.  She digs her fingers in tighter.  She cries out.  Her juices soak my face. 

She shoves me to my back, releasing her grip on my throat.  I topple over hard, gasping for air.  Coughing.  Choking.  I swallow repeatedly.  My breathing calms.  I slowly regain my composure.  I can still feel where her thumbs pressed my throat. 

Her boots click against the floor as she gets closer.

“On your stomach, inmate!”

I turn over onto my stomach.  I want to cry out to her.  Mistress, you are hurting me.  Mistress, you are scaring me.  Mistress, I love you. 

She digs her knee into my back.  I grunt.  The gag presses against my lips.  I part them and it fills my mouth.  The buckle pulls tight, digging the straps into my cheeks.  The lock clicks.  She pulls the mask down over my face.  It’s soaked with her fluids.  Her scent dominates my senses. 

She presses her hand on the back of my head. 
“The other ladies are going to be so disappointed at your pathetic oral abilities, inmate.  I’m sure they won’t even bother trying and they will go straight for that ass.  They were a bit worried our ‘past experiences’ might cause me to go easier on you out of sympathy.”

She grabs the handcuff chain and pulls my arms up.  Click, click, click.  Click, click, click.  She tightens each cuff, removing any amount of play in them.

“Let’s just say it has the opposite effect.  To think that someone I once cared about is now a convicted criminal and sex offender.  I’m mortified that I knew you and I hope you suffer like the piece of shit that you are.”

She dismounts my back.  I whimper and sob on the ground.

“Get back in your cell, inmate.” 

I rise with difficulty and begin to shuffle to my cage.  Smack.  A leather strip lands on my back.  I move as fast as I can.  I fall into the cage onto my chest.  She shoves my legs with her boot.  The door swings shut with a clang.  The latch closes.  The lock clicks.  The light vanishes behind me.  I lay alone in the dark.  I cry.

END ACT

Fiction: fs01 - Part 35



Author’s Note:  This takes place the Thursday after part 34. 

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XXXV

I stand at attention in the corner of the room.   Mistress sits on the couch next to Amanda.  The two younger women sit on the love seat.  I have never seen them before.

“So, Cass, these are the two graduate students I am advising that are working on their thesis project.  They are both double-majoring in Psychology and Criminal Justice and have taken on this project together.”

“Tabitha.”  The woman with the short, black hair raises her hand.
“It’s good to meet you, Cassandra, Amanda has told us a lot about you.”

“and Lauren.”  The woman with shoulder-length blonde hair raises her hand.
“I’ve been really looking forward to this, Cassandra.”

“It’s good to meet the both of you.  I always love to see women trying to change the world by getting more into the minds of men.  Amanda tells me you have a project in mind?”

Tabitha leans forward and speaks.

“Yes, Cassandra.  The idea that Lauren and I had was to come up with a new type of prison.  A prison that deals specifically with crimes against women.  We are working on a rehabilitation program that would condition these men from seeing women as victims, to viewing them with respect, obedience, reverence, and a little bit of fear.”

“That idea sounds wonderful, Tabitha, please continue.”  Tabitha and Lauren nod at each other.  She continues.

“The prison would be an unprecedented experiment.  The warden and guard staff would be comprised entirely of women.  Sentences would have no fixed length.  Prisoners would be incarcerated until completing their rehabilitation, which requires passing psychiatric evaluations.”

“This intrigues me.  How would you go about covering operating costs?”

Lauren clears her throat and leans forward.  Tabitha sits back in the love seat.

“Right now, Cassandra, it’s currently the tax-payers who bear the brunt of incarceration costs.  Our prison plan follows an efficient for-profit model in addition to a few other changes.  In our theoretical prison, it is the inmates themselves that incur the debt and costs associated with their incarceration.  Upon being released on parole, their wages will be garnished as they work off their debt.  For our purposes, our prison would serve in situations where criminals would choose our prison as part of a plea bargain and could not be sentenced there without their legal consent.”

“How would you convince them to choose your prison?”

“That is a good question, Cassandra.  Our surveys have shown that the number one concern about male inmates going to prison is the fear of inmate on inmate rape.  The second concern was the fear of male guard on inmate abuse.  In our prison, all of the inmates would be kept in chastity belts, eliminating the possibility of inmate on inmate rape.  Since the guards are all female, there are no male guards to abuse them.  Taking those things into account as well as the possibility for completing their rehabilitation quickly leading to less time served, I believe there are a good number of criminals that would gladly incur this debt over facing the harsh realities of normal federal or state penitentiaries.”

“I have to hand it to you girls, this seems like a thorough and well-planned idea.  I have to ask though, how does this pertain to me?”

Tabitha and Lauren look at each other.  Amanda speaks up again.

“Cass, they are wondering if they could borrow your slave for a week or so.”

My eyes widen.  My fingers fidget within the muff.  Please no, Mistress.  My eyes fixate on her face.  She glances up.  Our eyes meet.  Her brow arches.  I quickly divert my eyes to the floor.  My face turns red.  I will be punished later.

Mistress turns to the young women.

“I will agree on two conditions.  First, tell me everything.  Second, I want to be a guard in your experiment.”

My jaw would drop if the gag allowed it.  Mistress’s face lights up.

“Do you have uniforms for prisoners and guards designed yet?  My shop can have some made for us.  What kind of climate is the prison going to be located in?  Do you have a place to host this experiment?  Do you need funding?”

“Whoa, slow down there, Cass.  I’m sure they can answer one question at a time.”  Tabitha leans forward and responds first.

“We want the climate to be cold.  We were considering hot and humid, but when we considered the quality of life for the guards, you can always get warm, but it’s impossible to get cool.”

Lauren steps in.

“We have received a handful of small donations from women’s interest groups but so far we have just kept the scale small.”

“Let me call a friend of mine.  She owns a good deal of land and a lot of equipment.  I’m almost certain if we got her involved that you would be able to explore the full potential of your idea.  Are you interested?”

“Yes, definitely,” replies Tabitha.  I wince.  The thought of Dominique as a prison guard makes fear creep up my spine.

“I have another friend, a lawyer.  She is a whiz with legal loopholes and I’m sure she would be willing to help you locate states or territories that would give the maximum freedom for rehabilitation practices, as well as what kind of legal limits you might face.”

“That would be amazing, Cassandra.”

“slave, fetch the champagne!”

I depart to the kitchen.  I struggle to keep the anxiety at bay.  I retrieve a bottle of champagne from the cooler in the pantry.  A serving tray.  Four glasses.  I carefully carry the tray back to the living room.

Mistress waves me over.  I hold the tray in front of her.  She pops the cork and returns the bottle to the tray.  I set it on the coffee table and fill the glasses.  I present the tray before each of them and they remove a glass. 

I lean over to set the tray on the coffee table.  Mistress leans forward and tugs on my collar ring.  Her voice whispers. 

“The slave should be scared.” 

Her voice sounds devious.  I swallow.  Her faint scent reaches me. 

“Finish the chores.  I will summon the slave if it is needed.”

I bow and turn.  Mistress’s hand slaps my ass.  I flinch silently and depart the room.  My mind is a mess, full of fear and anticipation for what is to come.

END ACT

Fiction: fs01 - Part 34



Author’s Note:  This takes place the day after Part 33

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XXXIV

I wake the next morning to a locked cage.  Mistress was here.  I force a smile behind the gag as I wait patiently for Mistress.  Our upcoming separation leaves me anxious.  I want to be with her.  I want to protect her.  I want to be of use to her.  Time passes. 

I hear the dungeon gate open.  Mistress’s boots click across the floor.  She comes into view, fully dressed and in her robe.  Disappointment lingers within me.  I enjoy helping her dress and her robe ritual.  This event is special to me and it has been denied.  She approaches and unlocks my cage.  I crawl out, bow, and kiss her feet.  First the right foot, then the left.  I kneel at attention, my hands together in the muff.

“Prepare my breakfast, slave.  No food for you today.  While I am eating you will wash yourself and shave.  Present yourself when you have finished.”

I wait for her to exit before I rise.  I follow her at a distance, up the stairs, and continue to the kitchen.  I prepare Mistress bacon, eggs, toast, juice, and coffee.  My stomach growls.   I forgot to eat dinner last night.  I feel my brain tipping into slavespace.  I have not earned the privilege to eat yet today.  I place her food on the table and head to the living room.

I bow.  She waves me over and I approach her.  Mistress removes the padlocks from my uniform one by one.  She turns forward the cuffs, unbuckles them, and turns them back. She unlocks my collar.  The locks clink together in a bowl on the table.  She releases my nipple harness.  My head harness and gag.  The belted muff. The locking plug.  I lie on my back and present my feet.  She removes the locks, buckles, and ankle chain.  I return to my knees, bow, and kiss her feet.  First the right foot, then the left.  She departs without a word.  She feels miles away.

I quickly retreat to the basement and start the cold shower.  I wash and shave.  My teeth chatter as I brush them with care.  I return to her and stand at attention in the kitchen, naked except for my chastity belt.  She finishes eating, leaving half a piece of toast and some scrambled eggs on her plate.  I clear her place and under her watchful eye, I dump the remaining food into the trash.  It pains me to watch the lid close.  I’m so hungry.  I bring her dishes to the sink.

“Leave the dirty dishes, slave.  Report to my room for inspection.”  I bow and rinse her dishes in the sink.  I follow a few steps behind her as she departs.  In her room I stand with my legs spread and my hands behind my head.  My eyes stay on the floor.  She drags her fingers over me as she inspects me. 

“slave, you will be serving my colleague in uniform.  You will not wear the gag, plug, or nipple harness.  They will be included if she deems them necessary.  She will have the keys to your locks.  You will bring an additional bag that will be locked and a change of uniform.  Get dressed, warm up my car, and carry my suitcases to it.”

I quickly don my uniform that sits on the table.  I buckle myself in.  I finish quickly and present myself to Mistress and she applies the locks.  My feelings spiral out of control and I furrow my brow.  Smack.  Her hand slaps me across the cheek.  My lip quivers.

“Don’t you dare present that attitude in front of her, slave.”  I feel instant remorse.  It lingers.

I go poker-faced as she finishes securing the locks.  I kneel, bow, and kiss her feet.  First the right foot, then the left.  I rise and tend to Mistress’s luggage.  The bags are heavy and require multiple trips.  I load them into her vehicle and start it, turning up the heat so that it will be warm for her. 

I stand at attention near the coat closet.  Mistress appears shortly.  I unfasten her robe and gently slide it off her body.  I hang it in the closet and stand before her. 

“3/4 length black fur with headband and gloves.” 

I return from the closet.  She turns and holds out her arm.  I slide her arm into the coat sleeve.  I wrap it around her body.  I do up the fasteners.  Her perfume fills my nose.  My sex strains against the belt.  I place the headband gently over her head and adjust it into place.  I slide the gloves onto her hands.  I want to look at her.  My Goddess.  My Venus in Furs.  My face shows my disappointment. 

Smack.  Her hand strikes my cheek hard.  Tears well up in my eyes due to the physical pain and her disapproval.

“Attitude, slave.  Show that face to my colleague and you will regret being born.” 

I lower my face in shame.  I’m sorry Mistress.  I escort her to the car, opening every door for her.  She climbs in and pops the rear gate.  I crawl in the back into the pet carrier and the gate slowly closes behind me.  The vehicle moves.  We drive for a while and I lose track of time. 

The vehicle slows to a stop.  I hear Mistress’s door open and the suspension bounces.  I wait in anticipation.  Several minutes pass.  Her door opens and she gets back in.  The back gate opens.

“slave, don’t dawdle.  She is expecting you.” 

I climb out of the vehicle and the gate closes behind me.  I take a step towards her door, hoping to wish her farewell.  The SUV pulls away and leaves me without a parting glance.  My heart aches.  I love you, Mistress.  Please be safe.

I turn and look at the medium-sized house before me.  I quickly realize that I am in my uniform on a sidewalk of a city street.  My face burns red.  A burst of self-consciousness clears my mind of my longing.  I hastily make my way up the stairs and enter the front door.  I slowly walk down the hall. 

“In here.”  A voice calls out to me.  I follow its trail to the living room.

I present myself on my knees before her.  My eyes quickly take in her form.  I dare not look her in the face.  She is a petite woman.  She lies on the couch, her left leg elevated by pillows.  I have never seen her before in my life.  My nerves race.  I know she judges me.

Her voice breaks the silence.

“So this is Cassandra’s slave boy.”  I swallow.

“How would you like me to address you, ma’am?”

“The boy will call me Madam.  Get on all fours.”

“Yes, Madam.”

I lower my upper body and hold it upright with my arms.  The hairs on my neck tingle.

“I see Cassandra never completed your training.  This weekend will have to suffice.  Move forward a little.  Just like when she was my student, leaving things unfinished.”

My stomach turns.  She frightens me.

“The boy will answer my questions.”  I hear small rattle as she picks up a leather belt that was hidden on the far side of her body on the couch.

“Why is the boy dressed like that?”

“This is my uniform provided for me by Mistress Cassandra, Madam.”

Smack.  The belt slaps down hard on my rear.  I wince and let out a small grunt.

“Unsatisfactory, slave.  Why is the boy dressed like that?”

“This is my uniform, Madam.”

Smack.  The belt lands again, harder.  My body recoils and I whimper.  Anxiety builds.  I do not understand.

“It appears Cassandra’s slave still thinks it is a person.  This amuses me.  ‘I,’ ‘me,’ and ‘my’ are terms used by people to describe themselves.  The boy here is chattel.  Property.  An object.  If the slave makes this mistake again, it will be beaten.  Why is the boy dressed like that?”

My spirit falls.  The brief sink is quickly interrupted by fear and desperation.

“The slave wears the uniform provided by Mistress Cassandra, Madam.”  She lightly taps the belt against her hand.

“It makes the boy look like a cock-sucker.  Does the boy suck cock?”

“I don’t suck cock, Madam.”

Smack.  I cry out and wobble.

“The slave doesn’t suck cock, Madam.”

Smack.  Harder.  I squeal.  Tears fill my eyes.

“I don’t know how Cassandra can deal with such an insolent and ill-mannered servant.”  She laughs.

“A slave telling me what it won’t do.  How preposterous.”  She clicks her tongue and shakes her head.

“Why does Cassandra dress the boy like that?”
“Madam, Mistress Cassandra dresses the slave this way for discomfort and humiliation.”
“Does the boy feel humiliated right now?”  I pause to think.  Her words guide me.
“No, Madam.  A slave’s emotions are useless beyond its ability to provide service.”
“The boy learns quickly.  I should have the slave serve me naked but the uniform does amuse me, so it will stay.”

She makes me readily aware of my outfit and how it must appear to a stranger.  I blush but bury my feelings deep.  Being on all fours exaggerates my vulnerability and exposure. 

“Tell me about the boy’s Mistress.”
“Yes, Madam.  Mistress Cassandra is the love of my life.”

Smack.  The belt bites into my skin.  I made another mistake.  The mental adjustment is difficult.
“The slave loves Mistress Cassandra with all of its heart.  She is wonderful.  Mistress Cassandra is beautiful and intelligent, caring and compassionate.  She is thoughtful.  Mistress Cassandra is strict but she is fair.  The slave worships and serves her.  She is the slave’s Goddess.”
“The boy answers adequately.  Why does the boy suppose that Cassandra would lend its services out so easily, to someone she hadn’t seen or spoken to in years?”

My body tenses.  She leans forward on the couch.  Her words expose the fears within my heart.  I cannot answer.

“Maybe the boy fails to understand Cassandra’s feelings.  Maybe the boy is just an object to her.  Maybe she loves the boy as she loves her favorite coat, but nothing more.”

My body trembles.  I cannot tell if I feel fear or anger.  My heart screams. 
“That’s not true, Madam.  Mistress Cassandra loves the slave.  She has to love the slave.  The slave would do anything for her.  Mistress respects you.  She entrusts you with the slave’s care.  The slave serves you under her direction.”

Tears flow from my eyes. 

“The boy certainly has a lot of faith in its Mistress.  So if I were to beat the boy without mercy, what would it do?”
“The slave would suffer at your hands, Madam.”
“If I were to violate the boy, would it resist?”
“The slave would suffer at your hands, Madam.”
“If I were to spread my legs and order the boy to pleasure me, would it comply?”
“The slave would pleasure you to the best of its abilities, Madam.”

She pauses.  The words flow so easily from my mouth, my mind takes time to process what I said.

“I think the boy should think about this.  Is the boy faithful to its Mistress if it so eagerly agrees to the demands of another?”

I sob.  I don’t understand what I feel.  Am I unfaithful if I do something unfaithful in order to obey Mistress?  I weep.

She places her hand on my back.
“Little Cassie really did find an interesting one.  I almost feel bad toying with the boy.  The boy should know that Cassandra forbade me from using its lips and tongue in that way.”

She pats my back and rubs her hand back and forth.  My tears slowly subside as her hand comforts me.

“Kneel in front of me, slave.”

I shift positions and kneel in front of her. 
“Cassandra told me I would have to give the boy instructions.  Here are the rules.  First, the boy may look at me.  The boy will not speak unless spoken to.  If the boy must speak, it should raise its hand and wait to be acknowledged.  The boy will never refer to itself as ‘me’ or ‘I’ or anything of that nature while here in my presence.  The boy will kneel while not in use.  Failure to follow these rules will be punished.  Does the boy understand?”
“Yes, Madam, the slave understands the rules.”
“Good.  Does the boy know who I am?”
“No, Madam.  Mistress told the slave nothing about you.”

She extends her hand and lifts my chin.  Our eyes meet.  She smiles.  Her face radiates warmth.  I smile back at her.  She is a pretty lady and looks to be a bit older than Mistress. 
“My name is Amanda.  I was Cassandra’s professor and faculty advisor during her undergrad days.  I helped steer her into abnormal psychology that eventually led to her practice.  We reconnected through social media last year and I was surprised to find out details about her current life.  It made me quite curious, especially when I found out she was married.  Pass me my drink, boy.” 

I nod and lift her glass from the coffee table.  I present it to her.  She takes it in her hands, takes a drink, and returns it to me.  I continue holding it within her reach. 

“I am not a Femdom, or whatever it’s called, but I do know some of the basics.  Cassandra and I really got back in touch with each other a while ago when she reached out about some problems she was having involving the boy and Tristan.  Since then she has kept me updated with the changes and progression in the relationship.  I find it quite fascinating.”

She takes the glass from my hand, drinks again, and replaces it.

“Now that I’ve seen the boy, I understand a little bit more.  This isn’t just some kind of game.  The boy honestly sees Cassandra as its Goddess, doesn’t it?”
“Yes, Madam.”
“And the boy would do anything she asks of it?”
“Yes, Madam.”

She smiles and shakes her head.  Her blonde hair dances across her shoulders. 

“I have a hard time absorbing this, boy.  Cassandra told me that you were once a fairly smart man with lots of interests.  What I see before me is a fairly smart slave with only one interest.  Cassandra told me she keeps the boy’s penis locked up in chastity.  Are you okay with that?” 
“Yes, Madam, the slave’s penis can get the slave in trouble.  The slave is happy that Mistress holds the key.”

She smiles again and sighs. 
“If only my ex-husband was smart enough to know that.  Why is the boy so comfortable talking about this with a stranger?”
“Madam, the slave has spoken about this before with others.  The slave is transparent and Mistress Cassandra grants it no privacy from the curiosity of others.”
“Well, the boy piques my interest.  I have not known many people who could keep their sanity in this environment, but it seems to make Cassandra and the boy happy.  I will warn the boy of this, I was able to condition it to depersonalize itself in 20 minutes.  The boy’s ability to adapt may actually be a danger.”

Her words haunt me.  We do not speak of these matters beyond this.  I attend to her needs.  I cook for her, assist her in bathing, dressing, fetching her medication, changing her leg’s wrap, ice, and other matters.  She keeps me close even though I feel I would be of better use performing household duties.  I can tell that she enjoys the company.

We small talk to pass the time.  I make her laugh.  The pronoun game affects me deeply, my mind slips deeper and deeper away from myself.  Amanda keeps me distracted enough to avoid thinking about Mistress.  I believe she sees what is happening inside of me and this is her favor to me. 

The days pass quickly.  By the third day Amanda is able to walk with crutches.  This is our last day together.  I help Amanda bathe and dress.  I prepare her breakfast and we eat together.  She provides me a small stool to sit on next to her.  It is a kind gesture that makes me feel warm inside. 

Mistress arrives in the early afternoon.  I greet her at the door with a bow and kiss her feet.  She wears her silver fox jacket and matching hat.  I inhale her perfume and my sex strains against the belt.  I love her, my Mistress.  My Queen.  My Goddess.  I escort her to the living room where she sits opposite Amanda.  I kneel next to her chair, facing Amanda.  Mistress’s hand pets my head.  I close my eyes and smile.

“You really are all grown up, Cassie.”
They both laugh.  I guess that Mistress is blushing. 

“Your slave was delightful.  It served me quite well these past few days.  I’m rather impressed.”
“I’m glad to hear that, Amanda.  I’m sure his ass is happy to hear that as well or he would have had quite the beating coming.  Make sure you don’t say too many positive things about him in his presence or that little ego just might sprout up.  It would be a waste after I worked so hard to crush it.”
“You really haven’t changed that much, Cassandra.  You’re still so stubborn and confident.  I hope you don’t mind that I took the liberty of breaking your slave a little farther.  It shouldn’t be able to put up any more mental resistance”
“Interesting, I’ll have to ask ‘it’ what happened later.”

“I have one more question for you, Cassandra.  I have a couple of graduate students working on their thesis project.  I’m sure they could use your assistance.  Would you be willing to meet with them?”
“You aren’t going to tell me more about it, are you Amanda?  I should know better than to even ask.  I’m free on Thursday, would 7pm work?”
“That should be fine.  I will let them know and contact you if there are any problems.”

They exchange small talk for a while.  As we depart Mistress orders me to kiss Amanda’s feet for the privilege of serving her.  I kneel and bow; my lips find their mark.  First the right foot, then the left.  I raise my head and she places her hand on it.  I look up.  She smiles down at me. 

On the ride home Mistress has me sit in the back seat.  My hands are locked inside the muff and she straps me in with a seat belt.  She asks me about the pronoun game and I explain it to her.  She processes her thoughts in silence. 

I smile.  I am simply happy to be near her.  My Mistress.  I love her.   She breaks the silence.
“slave, when permitted to speak it will continue as instructed by Amanda.  Does it understand?”
“Yes, Mistress. The slave understands.”
“Speech privileges removed.”

END ACT

More thoughts on Arc 6

I will be honest... I'm actually kind of scared that Arc 6 is not going to be of the same quality as previous arcs.  While I've made good progress on the story, my emotions while writing are a bit messy.  This is partly due to my own emotional state but partly due to writing Cassandra and fs in a "tweener" state.  I find myself bouncing around emotionally as I go and I can't tell if it's due to me or the content.  Some scenes make me want to cry and others make me go numb.  I might just be insecure after the other arcs flowed so easily, but I hope that these next parts don't suck.

I am currently writing part 34.  Parts 35 and 36 are done and I have ideas on where to go beyond that. 

Fiction: fs01 - Part 33

Author’s Note:  This follows Part 32.

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XXXIII

With each passing day, Mistress glows brighter.  Her fire burns hotter. She orgasms faster.  More frequently.  More intense.  Her pleasure cries are primal.  Violent.

She grows.  She embraces more of herself.  It's beautiful.  She is beautiful.

I love her.  I love watching her flourish.  I love feeding her fire.  Any conflicts I have inside about the new rules are overshadowed by the promises I made her: I would make her happy.  I would encourage her growth.  I would endure. With each day she glows brighter.

I kneel in front of Mistress as she sits on her throne in the bedroom.  My knees ache from the rice. My back is to her.  I feel her hands wander over me from behind.  She runs her fingers through the fur of my collar.  She pets my head.  Her finger traces across my cheek.  I close my eyes and take a deep breath.  The scent of her perfume surrounds me.  It intoxicates me.  My sex strains against the metal.

"slave, I will be taking a trip for the long weekend.  Normally I would have someone come and stay with you but a former colleague of mine injured her leg skiing and requires an attendant.  I took the liberty of volunteering you for the task."

I start to turn my shoulders.  She places her hands on my upper arms and turns me back.  My heart is uneasy.  I don’t like it when we are separated.  Involving someone new only adds to the growing anxiety.

"This will be your first time serving a stranger.   You are to wait on her and assist her in any way while I am gone.  She is aware of our lifestyle and wants you in your maid form.  I have given her instructions on how to manage you, so you should expect her to wield the same power that Theresa, Lisa, or anyone else would have as your overseer.  Do you understand?"

I nod.  My mind races with dozens of questions.  Who is she?  Is she dominant?  How close is she to Mistress?  Even without the gag, I know I would not be permitted to ask.  My shoulders tense.

"Don't worry, she's nothing like Dominique."  Her hand returns to petting my head.  I let out a sigh of relief.

“I respect her a lot.  Your behavior will be a direct reflection of me.  If you make me look bad or reflect negatively on me in any way I will not hesitate to hurt you.  If that happens you will wish that Dominique were here to protect you.”

I lower my eyes. 

“I leave tomorrow, slave.  Place your head on my lap.  I wish to touch you.”

I turn to face her on my knees.  The posture collar prevents me from tilting my head in the normal way.  I lean forward and place my face on her lap.  The robe feels nice on my face.  Her perfume surrounds me.  Her fingers caress the fur on my earmuffs.  I close my eyes.  I want to see her face.  I want to see her eyes right now.  I no longer possess that privilege.  A sense of longing stirs in my heart.

I relish this intimacy.  My love for her burns deeply.  Her hands glide across my head.  She pets me.  Her finger strokes my cheek.  I love you, Mistress.  A touch from my Goddess is so precious.  It happens so infrequently now that I do not take it for granted.

I inhale deeply through my nose.  Her hand plays with the pom pom on my hat.  I feel her expanding heat on my cheeks.  I snuggle my face into her thighs. 

“That’s a little ambitious for a slave.”

Her voice carries disgust.  She shoves my head off of her lap and stands.  My heart aches a little at the rejection.  It is my own fault.

“Kiss my feet.”  I bow my head and kiss them, first the right foot, then the left.

“Retrieve the large suitcase, 2 rollers, and a large garment bag and place them outside my door.  I do not wish to be disturbed.  Finish your chores.  I will summon you if needed.”

I sulk in silence for the next few hours.  Chores drag.  I hear Mistress’s pleasure cries from across the house.  It fills me with longing.  I wish to lay with her.  I want to feel her arms around me.  I need to hear her voice turn cute and call me, ‘pet.’  How long has it been?  Weeks?

The bell rings over the intercom.  My body perks up.  I set the duster on the table and head for her room.  Her voice stops me in my tracks. 

“slave, prepare a light dinner for me.  A salad.  Serve it to me in my room.”

I retreat to the kitchen.  I prepare her salad with love.  Leafy greens, fresh vegetables, cheese, some shredded chicken, croutons, and a medium amount of dressing.  I place it on a silver tray along with a glass of wine. 

I carefully deliver the meal to Mistress’s bedroom.  I knock on the door.

“Enter, slave.”

I carefully open the door and enter.  Open suitcases line her floor.  Each is half-packed.  Mistress sprawls upon the bed.  Her robe sits open exposing her naked form.  A light glow of sweat glistens on her skin.  Various toys are strewn about the bed and floor.

I approach her with the tray.

“slave, place the tray on the nightstand and respect my privacy.” 
I set the tray down.  I turn and bow.  I depart the room, closing the door behind me.  My heart aches to be with her.  I return to the kitchen and clean the knives and cutting boards.  I finish my dusting. 

I stand at the stairs.  My eyes on the floor.  My hands in the muff.  I wait for her.  Time passes slowly.  Mistress, please need me. 

My eyes grow heavy.  My spirits grow weak.  I retreat to the basement dungeon.  The cage awaits me.  I crawl in and curl up into a ball.  I close my eyes.  I doze off.

END ACT

Sunday, July 3, 2016

I had a little help from my friends

I wanted to say thank you, everyone, for the support.  It really means a lot to me for people to leave comments and keep my spirits up when I am feeling drained.  It had been about 10 days since I was able to reach subspace.  That might not seem like a long time, but after reaching it nearly every day for 7+ weeks it was a bit jarring to find myself blocked from it. 

Yesterday a friend went above and beyond and helped give me that last little nudge I needed to find subspace.  I was able to write last night.  I took an idea from a different fiction idea that I had and was able to integrate it into fs01.  I have backburnered the original ideas I had for Arc 6.  That being said, part 32 and the next section do not flow as of yet so it is very likely that I will finish the later parts of Arc 6 before writing the transition between the two.  The end result will likely be 3-5 chapters going live at the same time. 

I will warn in advance that these later chapters may require some future edits in order to add in "sufficient thoughts," but the plot itself should be there as well as basic emotional responses.