I am writing to try and break myself out of this rut...
A couple of weeks ago Misty was kind enough to share with me some ideas for blog topics when I had asked for ideas on a post. I can't seem to come up with any other ideas that motivate me to write so here goes.
One potential topic that was brought up is: Is submission a gift?
When I first read this topic idea my initial reaction was, "holy shit this is a huge can of worms." There are so many ways to approach this, so many points of view that come into play, and also the great gap between what I actually feel vs. how I would want others to see it.
If I look at this with my "truest voice," I do not view my submission as a gift. A gift can be given lightly. A gift can be presented to someone that doesn't wish to receive it. A gift feels like an exchange between equals. People often use the term charity to describe a gift from the affluent to the poor. Can the inferior give a gift to a superior?
If I had to choose a term to describe my submission, I would say it as an offering. She does not need it. She chooses to lay claim to it. Part of it involves what I give. The other part involves what she takes.
She does not claim my submission as a rigid form. She shapes it and molds its form. She may take more from it than originally offered. I see this as being far more interactive than the idea of a gift may imply.
Offering submission is a choice performed out of our free will. That choice carries with it the idea of willingly giving up that freedom.
I think my view is heavily shaped in that I feel so grateful that she claims my offering. I see that act as being far more important than presenting my offering in the first place. The glorious feeling of being chosen... I can't imagine that my offering of submission could make her feel as wonderful as that.
I am very aware that my own views on this are biased. I could easily be mistaken and it is likely that a Domme may see submission as a gift. I tend to skew my own views to always feel like the lucky one; it tends to keep me more focused when I feel like what I offer is less important than what she chooses to provide.