On some levels I have to wonder if the lack of dynamics in real life actually push me farther down the rabbit hole.
Denying my submission is fruitless. Manifesting it in ways that I can is potentially dangerous at the rate it can change me.
Dynamics eventually grow stale, but it takes a lot of trial and error, guessing and checking, and the like in a lifestyle situation to reach the point of stability and then time and repetition to make it feel stale. As I remain limited to fantasy and writing fiction, I am finding that I naturally delve into some rather intense and deep/dark versions of the dynamics and scenarios. The problem I see here is that my mind goes through them without stumbling. There is no learning curve. There is no checking in and mutual feedback to ensure things are progressing in a positive way. All of that gets bypassed immediately into its final form... a form that can be scary enough that it might take five years to reach that in real life.
My brain takes me there in an instant and it doesn't take long for that to become stale. It evolves. The problem is that there isn't that process of growing and building... in fantasy it happens in leaps and bounds... it reaches the next plateau without the pleasure of the journey and the climb.
I terrify myself in some ways as to where this takes me and the speed with which it happens.