It snowed here yesterday, which basically means that winter has started and the weather will likely be shitty until around... May.
I've written about it before, but I was raised to tough it out. I wear a pair of gloves when it gets cold out, but I rarely zip my coat and I never wear hats, scarves, etc. This greatly seems to impact the humiliation of my previous experiences with being forced to wear what I have worn.
This past year the ache has grown stronger. The need for attention in this part of my life is ever-present and very little happens to appease the hunger.
Over the past few weeks I've mulled over the idea of wearing a pair of fur earmuffs on my way to and home from work. Nothing outrageously bad, probably something dark colored but probably just past the edge of unisex. The thought of it makes me squirm a bit and I would have to wonder if this would help.
Self-induced humiliation always feels a bit wrong... but is it better than just feeling desire? Or would it just be a reminder of how sad I feel on a daily basis? I don't know.
Self induced humiliation that results in a masturbatory experience was a fairly common denominator in many of the subs I previously dealt with. In the absence of the real thing, they felt it was better than nothing. So, what's the harm? Give it a try. At worst, it will make you feel sad and you can stop. At best, it could offer some much needed pleasure.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Lady Grey.
DeleteI will continue to ponder my options here. I know that I am losing my battle with controlling submissive desires.
I received these comments via email with permission to post them here from a reader that is having trouble posting comments on the blog:
ReplyDelete"I tried wearing ear muffs and they are real awesome. You cannot just pull them off, fold and tuck them away same way as you can with a hat, you HAVE to WEAR them. And even when you are not wearing them, you have to hold them or put them down flat because they feel like they could break/deform easily if squeezed in a bag or a bigger pocket at work for a longer period of time. So they are just perfect, go for a nice big fluffy one from fox :). They also usually have nice soft insulation on the inside :).
The only problem I have seen with them is that they only cover the ear, the top of my head simply freezes off very fast :(."
I tried wearing ear muffs and they are real awesome. You cannot just pull them off, fold and tuck them away same way as you can with a hat, you HAVE to WEAR them. And even when you are not wearing them, you have to hold them or put them down flat because they feel like they could break/deform easily if squeezed in a bag or a bigger pocket at work for a longer period of time. So they are just perfect, go for a nice big fluffy one from fox :). They also usually have nice soft insulation on the inside :).
ReplyDeleteThe only problem I have seen with them is that they only cover the ear, the top of my head simply freezes off very fast :(.
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