Monday, March 6, 2017

Last weekend...

This past weekend T instigated a couple of fights that led to my first panic attacks in almost a year.  They were bad and I found myself in a mental space that I really would rather not ever experience... places that are much darker than I care to admit.

I feel like things in our relationship are getting broken beyond repair.  While we can band-aid things it never really stops the bleeding.  I don't know how much more my heart can handle this.

I'm feeling a bit emotionally spent.

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  1. I must admit that I'm of two minds about what's happening with you and T. On one hand, I'm sad that this is so painful for you, and on the other hand I'm hoping that you'll find the strength to get out of what continues to be such a negative situation. You're more than welcome to advise me to mind my own business, but I really had to say this to a person that I care about and who deserves something better. As Mr. Buffett once sang, "There's no re-write in this carnival world". We must try our best to get it right while we can.

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    1. Thank you, Lady Grey.

      I always appreciate your input. It really is reaching a point where it is that bad... and sometimes becoming completely unbearable has the same outcome as getting stronger, right?

      Take care.

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  2. I agree with Lady Grey, I am sorry to see you hurt, but I hope you will find a way to be happy and with someone who deserves you.

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    1. Thank you, Miss Lily. It's always good to hear from you.

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