Sorry for the waste of a post here. I'm very tired right now but letting my fingers wander upon the keys.
I'm looking back and realizing that I made 171 blog posts since May 9th. Seeing that fs01 is currently at over 91k words (41 posts) and Reflections pulled in at 34k words (23 posts), that is a lot of writing.
It is probably obvious to some that since I have returned this blog has filled a major hole in my life. I wrote in lieu of social contact. I attempted on several levels to reach out to others with extremely mixed results. Thankfully things are changing a bit.
I have managed to rebuild a bit of a support system. There are a handful of people I have been corresponding with in private fairly regularly. This has provided a good outlet to converse in and has helped me feel a lot more stable and comfortable with myself. The contact I was seeking is now present and it calms my heart a lot. I no longer get the frantic urge to write. The downside (or upside) of this is that I probably will not be writing as much. I want to continue with fs01 and will probably pop in with a few other posts now and then as the urge arises, but that huge wave of feelings that I was riding has faded out quite a bit.
I will still take requests if people would like me to talk about a topic or if anyone has questions about experiences that I have had over the years. Overall, fewer posts probably means I'm in a better mental and emotional state.
I know that every time I have written that I'm slowing down I end up making like 5 posts the next day, but this time I feel like it is real unless something manages to inspire me in a way that I can't currently anticipate.