Author’s
note. This takes place not long after Part 58.
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LX
My
nerve endings fire in anticipation. My hands fidget as Mistress
paces behind me, her boots clicking against the wooden floor. I
shiver a little, my naked flesh in the exposed air… the hard wooden
stool presses coldly against the backs of my thighs. I can’t
remember the last time I was this, “free”: my sex free of its
steel prison, my body free of the accursed uniform.
I
hear her steps cease. With a slow exhale Mistress places her gloved
hands upon my shoulders, the fur of her robe gently teasing the
surface of my skin, the sensation of her breath on my neck, the scent
of her perfume creeps its way into my nose.
I
feel my sex quiver but the chill and fear prevents it from fully
enjoying itself. Strands of her her hair dance against my back as
she shifts forward, placing her cheek against mine. A small giggle.
“Oh,
pet, I hope that shrinkage is because of the cold.”
My
cheeks blush red as she inhales loudly through her nose. I feel her
lips place a gentle kiss upon my cheek.
“I
decided you deserve a little treat. My devoted pet, you try so hard
to please me.”
I
instinctively lower my eyes and press my lips tightly together. Her
words feel warm in my heart but I’ve never been good at receiving
compliments or rewards.
I
feel Mistress reach over my shoulder and click the mouse on the desk.
The screen of her computer lights up as the whir of the hard-drive
clicks and clacks. She turns her head and looks back at me with a
smile.
“Porn.”
Upon
the screen appears a beautiful naked woman with large breasts. Her
legs are spread and raised. A muscular man with a large penis stands
between them. I watch as he penetrates her, thrusting and retracting
his hips rhythmically. His light grunts are overpowered by her moans
of pleasure.
Mistress
moves around me to my right.
“Play
with yourself, pet. I want to see you cum.”
I
turn my head and our eyes meet. Surprise… astonishment… I stare
at her like a deer in headlights. She clears her throat and nods.
My eyes slowly return to the screen as my hand slowly drifts down to
my waist. I hesitate, feeling wrong… feeling naughty… but I have
permission… this is what Mistress wants.
My
hand gently cups around the shaft. I stroke it. Panic sets in. I
adjust my grip and continue rubbing.
I
let out a whimper.
“What’s
the matter, pet?”
I
feel reality crush me with a devastating blow. I increase the pace
and feel a lump form in the pit of my chest.
“Is
something wrong?”
Mistress
moves a few steps closer and looks down. I let out a light sob.
“Oh,
pet, why aren’t you hard? I mean that woman is so hot, she’s got
me wet.”
My
hand abruptly drops my sex and I instinctively cover my face. The
tears flow quickly.
“Talk
to me, pet.”
“I’m
so sorry, Mistress. I think I’m broken. I’m so sorry.”
I
weep and whimper into my hands. I keep mumbling apologies as I wail
and sob. My hands tug my hair as I lower my head in shame. How did
I get so fucked up?
Mistress
moves closer and puts her arms around me.
“Are
you afraid that it doesn’t work anymore?”
I
nod through the tears.
“and
if it doesn’t work anymore, that makes you feel like less of a
man?”
I
nod again.
“I’m
pretty sure it still works, pet… I think it just works a little
differently. Do you want to find out?”
I
nod vigorously. Mistress clicks the mouse again and the video on the
computer screen stops.
“There’s
a uniform in the garment bag on the sofa. Go put it on.”
I
nod and wipe the tears from my face. At the back of the office sits
the sofa and the garment bag. My chest heaves as I remove the
fur-trimmed maid’s dress and begin to put it on. Mistress waits
patiently as she watches. I approach her and present myself as she
finishes the final buckles and locks the earmuff harness upon my
head. She steps to one side and holds out her hand, directing me to
sit again on the stool.
The
computer screen changes to a new video. My breathing remains heavy.
Mistress moves behind me and places her hands on my shoulders. On
the screen a sissy maid lays strapped down to a horse. The Mistress
paces back and forth behind him, swatting his bottom with a heavy
flogger. On each impact he lets out a loud grunt. She pauses every
few steps to admire her work and caresses his reddened flesh with a
gloved hand.
I
feel the blood rush below my waist and my sex twitches. The video
cuts over to a new clip. A Mistress in a fur coat brandishing a
large strap on stands behind a sissy maid bent over the bed.
“Play
with yourself, pet.”
I
nod and slowly close my hand around my penis. The Mistress in the
video begins to violate the restrained sub as he groans against a
gag. I feel it grow fully erect as I rub it. I feel Mistress reach
around my sides and gently pinch and twist my nipples. I let out a
low moan as my sex strains in my hand.
“See
pet? I’m pretty sure it still works. Now stop.”
I
relax my hand and Mistress firmly tugs my arms behind me. The lock
clicks as she secures my hands behind my back. I flex my pelvic
muscles as my engorged flesh aches for attention.
As
the cravings subside rational thought kicks me in the gut. I lower
my head.
“You
just realized it, didn’t you?”
I
nod.
“You
aren’t broken… you’re just… defective… a deviant… a
pervert. I’ll bet you’re wondering what the girls will think
when they find out about it.”
I
shut my eyes tight as blood rushes to my face. I’m fucked up. I’m
fucked up. I’m fucked up.
“Why
are you so upset, pet?”
“I’m
so sorry, Mistress.”
“Why
are you sorry?” I sob gently without responding.
Mistress
puts her arms around me and squeezes. She positions herself so that
her mouth is at the side of my head.
“I
did this to you, pet. I did it on purpose. You are MINE. Now no
one will want you but me.”
She
hugs me and rocks me from side to side.
“You
are my pet. My pet. MY pet. MINE. I like you better this way.”
The
feelings twist and turn inside. How quickly denial and anger concede
to acceptance when you feel loved. I close my eyes and take a deep
breath.
“Good
boy. If you were going to sulk about something that makes me happy I
would have had to whip your ass. Now lose that erection so we can
put your belt back on or I’ll have to go get some ice.”
I
sneak a kiss on her shoulder. She moves her head and smirks at me.
Her eyes penetrate my soul. She closes them and presses her lips
against mine, forcing her tongue deep into my mouth. I love my
Mistress.
END
ACT
Well, I'm not surprised at fiction fur's reaction to the various types of porn. Vanilla sex holds little or no appeal to a sub, now does it? And really, why should it? The cock responds only when aroused, right? Personally, I'm very happy with that situation.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Lady Grey.
DeleteI do believe the sub should only get aroused at things that please his Mistress :)
This chapter seemed to fit a bit with fs's backstory and my own lingering self-doubt in regards to this topic. In addition to the feminization being sexist, there is another growing population of younger Dommes that get disgusted by subs that get aroused by "non-standard" means. Eg. Not sex, cunnilingus, etc.
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DeleteI was hoping the back story was to continue, but perhaps more on that later. It sounds like Mistress has conditioned fs exactly the way she wants him. And honestly...I don't think it's broken or defective. I think it is exactly what they both want.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Nora. That is indeed how she wanted him... and he just wants to be what she wants him to be.
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