Friday, July 29, 2016
There exists a place where the demons fall silent. Their voices are replaced with a definitive sense of purpose, a sense of belonging, incredible motivation, and deep and passionate feelings of love, devotion, and adoration. This is the realm that makes sense. The chaos calms as I adhere solely to her will. I exist for her benefit. I exist for her pleasure. I exist for her happiness. These feelings sustain me. I do not question the methods, I endure the hardships, each hurdle making me feel more deserving... like I have earned more... like I can become more in her eyes. It feels like my soul is not my own and my core burns with a single purpose: to love her with everything that I am.
These are the thoughts and feelings that resonate in my heart and in my head. This is my subspace.
(If this post seems oddly out of place I am writing these words to describe something to someone and I figured it would work as a post instead of keeping it private).