My Subspace

There exists a place where the demons fall silent.  Their voices are replaced with a definitive sense of purpose, a sense of belonging, incredible motivation, and deep and passionate feelings of love, devotion, and adoration.  This is the realm that makes sense.  The chaos calms as I adhere solely to her will.  I exist for her benefit.  I exist for her pleasure.  I exist for her happiness.  These feelings sustain me.  I do not question the methods, I endure the hardships, each hurdle making me feel more deserving... like I have earned more... like I can become more in her eyes.  It feels like my soul is not my own and my core burns with a single purpose: to love her with everything that I am. 

These are the thoughts and feelings that resonate in my heart and in my head.  This is my subspace. 



(If this post seems oddly out of place I am writing these words to describe something to someone and I figured it would work as a post instead of keeping it private).