I've been in a strange mood lately. The past few posts I've been able to tap into the voice of my heart but today it feels blocked. I'm overly sensitive right now. My annual attempt to reach out through fetlife, chats, and newer blog authors was again a complete failure. The barriers on my heart are choosing to interpret this with disappointment and frustration rather than turning them inwards and blaming myself... although this will inevitably happen in a few days.
I like to think that I'm someone worth knowing. I can't do much about it if others don't feel the same way.
I will turn to my default reaction to these feelings: cherish the hell out of what I have.
There are a half a dozen people or so in the online kinky web that mean the world to me. Without you guys, I don't know where I'd be. Probably stuck, lost, depressed, and gone from this medium.
To everyone that leaves comments, emails me, and the like... you guys are amazing. To ye, I dedicate a hammer dance.