Wednesday, March 15, 2017

#10

I've typed and deleted nine posts tonight.  Nine.  Lots of things seem like a good idea at first but end up seeming stupid when I get them down on (virtual) paper.

I've been in a strange mood lately.  The past few posts I've been able to tap into the voice of my heart but today it feels blocked.  I'm overly sensitive right now.  My annual attempt to reach out through fetlife, chats, and newer blog authors was again a complete failure.  The barriers on my heart are choosing to interpret this with disappointment and frustration rather than turning them inwards and blaming myself... although this will inevitably happen in a few days.

I like to think that I'm someone worth knowing.  I can't do much about it if others don't feel the same way.

I will turn to my default reaction to these feelings:  cherish the hell out of what I have.
There are a half a dozen people or so in the online kinky web that mean the world to me.  Without you guys, I don't know where I'd be.  Probably stuck, lost, depressed, and gone from this medium. 

To everyone that leaves comments, emails me, and the like... you guys are amazing.  To ye, I dedicate a hammer dance.


4 comments:

  1. I think it's great that you seek out connections...not sure where I'd be if you didn't.

    Hammer time! :P

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    1. Thank you, Misty.

      Ive always liked getting to know people. Seeing how their mind works... how they see the world.

      Sometimes people communicate things in a way where just a bit more clarification can be very meaningful.

      It's so rare that people are open to connections. The handful of times that I do succeed make the mountains of times that I fail worthwhile.

      Take care.

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  2. You and I have connected quite a bit over the years, fur, and I certainly cherish that connection. Personally, I'll always take a few meaningful connections over a plethora of fly-by-nights. You're on the very top of my list for meaningful dialogues, and I'd be devastated if you chose to disappear from the blogosphere some day. Just keep on being YOU, and keep plugging away. I'm counting on it.

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    1. Thank you so very much, Lady Grey.

      I have enjoyed our interactions immensely over the years. I'm always excited when I see your comments arrive in my inbox or I find a new post from you. I hope you know just how much it means to me. You are one of the reasons I'm able to keep on going. Thank you again.

      Take care.

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