Monday, March 27, 2017

30 Days of submission: Day 7

Do you accept and/or expect discipline or punishments as a part of your submission? 


How do you feel about it?

I don't care for pain but I accept it as a teaching tool.  It has purpose on multiple fronts.

I want to be perfect for her and hope that she believes in me enough to expect the best from me.  Not all of my habits are exactly as I would like them to be.  My attitude isn't always what I want it to be.  If pain can make me better for her then I willingly accept it.

Secondly, I feel guilty when I have disappointed her.  VERY guilty.  It eats me up inside guilty.  Punishment helps purge the guilt from my system.  It is my penance and it is how I earn forgiveness.  This allows me to let it go and move on from it and returns me to a better mental place.  

So... I guess you could say that I dislike the act but like what it does. 


  1. What if the punishment is not for any specific misdeed, but merely because your sadistic Mistress enjoys it? Hardly a teaching tool, is it, but it amuses her and turns her on to see you being punished at her where do you stand on that?

    1. Thank you, Lady Grey.

      As for that... I don't really consider it punishment. I tend to see it as "pleasing her" and I made the promise to fulfill that role so I'm completely okay with it. I just tend to save the term punishment as something that is used for my misdeeds and shortcomings. If she hits me for her pleasure, it might fall under the label of "play".

      Take care.