My Healing Process

I didn't receive much in the way of comments on my post What I bring to a D/s relationship AKA My Thoughts on D/s and Depression Part 2 but a few people did contact me privately, kind of a "holy crap, that must have hurt" type of way.

As I've written about in the past couple of weeks, I am healing up from emotional wounds at the moment.  This is sort of the last few stages in my healing process: floundering, reaching out, desperation, self-consciousness, tearing it all down, rebuilding.

I try to always be my own harshest critic and I try not to tip-toe around myself.  Putting it out there in the bluntest way possible is the easiest way for me to try to heal from it.  Until I see the issues for what they really are, there's no way to move past them. Other people might have a healthier way of going about this.  This is the one I choose for myself.

On the upside, since writing that post out I'm feeling a lot better.  My footing is more sturdy.  I feel a lot better about who I am and my place in this world.  The people who have commented on my other posts and/or reached out in some way have all helped with this.  I tend to trust outside, objective eyes better than I trust my own on this front.

I'm thinking about why it is that I feel the need to share all of this.  I suppose that part of it is because this is my first time going through this whole process while continuing to blog.  In years past I would have just left the internet until I was through this, possibly giving a status update here and there.  

I hope that I didn't weird anyone out or put people off with the past week.  I had always been hesitant to let people see this side because I didn't want people to feel I was weak. 

Now that my emotions seem firmly in order again I hope to resume some blogging that is more consistent with how I have written over the course of this blog... talking about ideas... fiction, and the like.

Take care and thank you for reading.