30 Days of submission: Day 23

Is there anything about submission (yours or what you see in others) that you question, dislike or repels you? 

I dislike the frantic "need" that subs get on occasion.  This frequently happens when there isn't enough quality time being spent with the Domme and a sub's submissive needs start falling by the wayside.  This can lead to a desperate and obsessed state, which puts the sub a bit out of control and focused upon their own needs.  

This happens to me on occasion.  I end up feeling disgusted with myself in its aftermath.

I believe this is most common with painfully single "do me" subs.  They can do and say some pretty despicable things in this state.  It's also painful to watch... sort of like a horny dog trying to hump every leg in sight.
 

Was there a time you questioned or were resistant to your own submissive feelings?

Plenty of times.

There are a good number of acts that I have participated in that I do not like.
Being forced to do these acts fuels my subspace and induces arousal.
Does that mean I actually like it?

The thought process is pretty simple.

1. I don't want this.  I don't want this.  I don't want this.
2. Why the hell do I have an erection?
3. Oh my God, this turns me on, I'm such a freak/pervert/weirdo. 
4. I wish this had never happened.

 Been there, done that, bought the T-shirt.  And yes, by now I have a lot of T-shirts.