I have originally planned to try and write some fiction tonight. fs01 is hanging and I need to get that back on track. After a couple of tests with some help from some friends I'm finding myself able to reach a state that is close to the state I would reach frequently before last Friday, which also happens to be the mindspace from where I write my fiction. I was supposed to be writing... but now I'm blocked.
It's not something I'd rather go into in great detail of specific, but T's son has become a problem that may be insurmountable. T let him drop out of high school. He doesn't work. He doesn't bathe. He doesn't help out. He doesn't exercise. He plays video games all day/night. In the past year and a half he has put on over 150 lbs. and now resides over 400 lbs. in a family with a history of diabetes. His ability to cope is rather non-existent and without turning things around he will likely end up a homeless diabetic. This has become a major problem interacting with T and tonight it came to a head again and I'm feeling rather wrecked.
I really want to write about things that don't just make things seem so down. I can't tell if I'm more frustrated or hurt right now.
Ooof.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're having to deal with this, Fur. It sounds like a terribly unhealthy situation for all involved, and on sooo many levels.
Thank you, Mrs Fever.
DeleteIt is painful to have to watch it. Even more painful when I try to help it and she explodes on me. I can be very supportive when people struggle but try. I don't have nearly the sympathy when people give up because it's difficult to face truth/reality/etc. It feels unwinnable and that means we all lose.
Take care.
My goodness, you have had a difficult week. I know nothing any of us can say will make it better, but know that we're all here, listening, and supporting you.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Sally.
DeleteKnowing that people are out there goes a long way in making me feel better about things.
Take care.
What a difficult situation Fur and more so, that in reaching out you then have T explode. Perhaps she carries a level of her own guilt feelings to the situation and as a parent we become fiercely protective at times, even if we know that a situation isn't healthy.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you're all able to get through these difficult times.
Best, Kat
Thank you, Kat.
DeleteA lot of the reasons this has continued is similar to the reasons that our attempts at 24-7 failed.
She is protective but when she gets mad it goes way over the top.
I'm not really sure if this is an upside but she finally acknowledged that we weren't feeling much of a connection anymore. It could lead to positive changes but who knows.
Take care.